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 Praying time goes faster so my life will end...I have endured my 3rd Christmas...so meaningless...another New Year with my heart still in pieces. I have started my Eat, Pray,Love journey;  going to places and visiting people special to our 35 yrs together...therapists thought would help but only made my heart break more...wish I had stayed in my shell. My journey took me to the church where we married, visiting my second Moma, visiting my best high school friend who was in our wedding. I realized that with Dad, Mom and Husband gone; who am I. How do I live?  My christian faith makes me choose not to take my own life but how do I continue to breathe. Whew, never thought " Life without my Love "would be so devastating. 

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Comment by Maxey on February 2, 2017 at 12:34pm
Dear Libbie,
I totally agree with you! I have come to a point where I am constantly praying each morning and evening for the Lord to take me. When life has no meaning, no joy, and no love, why are we here. My family is very loving, but, my husband was my anchor, my lover, and my best friend. After 55 years, how does one just start over. I do not want another "new" life, I just want the old I had. It isn't going to happen, so why not let me go? The days seem to stretch on; I count the time until it is finally over, and I find peace from this pain.
As always, I wish everyone some peace and comfort wherever they can find it.

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