Hi. I am Wes...

 I am the last of my immediate family. (I am going to be 60 yrs old this coming spring).

My dad passed from small cell lung cancer, 4 days before Christmas 2012/(2013). Then 4 years later I lost my mom to COPD. The next year I lost my kid sister, also to COPD, and then this past April I lost my baby brother to stomach cancer.

I worked at the same company as my mom and dad. I lived with my mom and sister since 1998, so I have spent a great deal of time with my family and I never dreamed they would all pass on before me.

There are some song lyrics that sum up how I feel about it,...it is called "Empty Chairs" by Don McLean 

"I wonder if you know, that I never understood, that although you said you'd go until you did, I never thought you would."

I feel lost without my family.

I was close with my sister, the second anniversary of her passing is next week on the 22nd. I was her primary caretaker at the end of life.

Sometimes, I talk out loud to my family...I have no idea what the afterlife is like but I like to think they can hear me.

I am overwhelmed by grief at times and I could use some new friends.

That is all I want to say for now, I am not fully awake yet. LOL Gotta get back to my ☕ .

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Comment by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on December 27, 2020 at 7:04am

Hi Wes,

We will be starting a grief support group soon via Zoom. I noticed you said you could use some new friends.  I could use some new friends as well. Perhaps we all could.  I believe Zoom meetings will be a very good option.  Would you be interested?  If so, were days and times would work for you?

Comment by Wes Raincloud on December 19, 2020 at 12:18am

Thank you, Jennifer Suero, it means a lot to me to get a reply to my post especially one that is filled with compassion. We should be friends.

Wes

Comment by Gen on December 17, 2020 at 2:54am

Hi, I'm so sorry for your losses. You have resilience, we all have it somewhere in us, we just need a little reminder and little push. I'm preaching to my "lower hurting self". your coffee is a small highlight in your day with HUGE appreciation- this is what I got from your last comment. It is the little things we need to reach for- I get it with all my soul.

-blessings

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