Bruno, my Frenchie, was Rocky's dog, even though he was supposed to be my dog. He bonded with Rocky though. And drove me crazy.

Now he's all I have of Rocky's. Like my last link. And he has cancer and heart disease and won't be long for this world. I pray that he will go straight to where ever Rocky is, so they can be together.

Then I will feel completely alone. There will be no one to greet me at the door. I have my birds, but it's not the same. Nothing is the same as a dog, and how they love us.

I feel Wellbutrin Numb right now. My doc bumped it up to 300 mg. So I am feeling nothing....most of the time. But it doesn't take much to make me cry. Then when I'm done crying I go back to nothingness. I'm like an empty shell now, with no heart, no hope, no nothing.

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Comment by Billy Jo Colt on November 30, 2016 at 6:32pm

I wish I was there to give you the biggest, most tender hugg you can imagine. I felt your heart in your words. So you have one with some strength. Perhaps not a lot but there. I felt your emotions in every single word. My girlfriend who died had a little miniature Poodle. She loved me to bits. In the morning she would come running into the room, run straight up my legs, over my stomach and lick my face as if she had not seem me for months.lol She was so loving. After my girlfriend died we thought she wouldn't last but she did. Another 3 years. She died a few months ago. As my girlfriend lived in Canada, I never got to visit  Lucy, her dog. I also have an African Grey and he is amazing but still asks for Carol every single day and that increases as Christmas approaches. They would chat on skype and both him and Carol had a special whistle. Yes, pets are very special in more ways than people are aware of. Treasure every minute with him. Give him a hugg from me too. Take care and stay safe. John hugggs.Hi Kathleen,

Comment by dream moon JO B on November 30, 2016 at 5:04pm

so sorry i loss my baby well she wz not a bay baby but my cat lucy lst wk i did sad thng wz i cud not go in vets 2 get her put 2 sleepp had 2 get my brhtr 2 do it i feal lk im bac 2 s 1 u cud say i am 

plsd thes 2 kitens hav cum in 2 my lif 2 tak my hed off thngs  u cud say we had 16 yrs of rns hp u cud say if iwz low i wud cry on her i did she wud lik me pur on  me she wud do i just hop my dad lucy r togr lucy giv him cat kises sitin on him prrin on me 

thn i get sad coz my dad cnt meet thes 2new kitens u mit thng im nuts or my cat lucy 2 meet thes 3 new 1s 

sorry if i sond mad

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