To a lot of people MOVING ON means something TANGIBLE. Such as a new relationship, new job, or new YOU. Well I´d say the true MOVING ON DEFINITIOn is so very far from the TANGIBLE. It´s more like cracking, dive in the dumps of self, craving what isn´t where we look for anything. It´s a dark place where light enters gradually and not as easy as it seems. Anyone can have a new relationship....but not everyone can have a new relationship with SELF trully emerging out at once. It´s not realistic. It slow and gradual. One step forward, 2 back. Being tired of being told to MOVE ON. Being aeway from the peers pressure of WHAT MOVING ON MEANS. It´s a REDEFINITION of SELF. It´s not something we can aim at without the disconstruct of whereas we used to fit so well. It´s a new existence, sort of rearranging the relationship with LIFE AS IS. It´s learning to cope with griedf. It´s taking the steps to pregress WHEN WE ARE READY. It´s not hiding from outer world, but CALM DOWN enough the feelings so they won´t surface where it´s not appropriate or where its damaging. It´s a change that we must spend time to break free from whatever patterns hold back. And its a FRAGILE process. Meaning, at times one bad move into the tANGIBLE makes TRUE PROGRESS seems like trying with both hands grabbing water while it just flows in between the fingers. It´s hard to achieve a few steps, but quick to loose where we are at. Often, that´s why we need to do it in more solityde, so progress is just lost to SELF and we pick ourselves up again and again, until a few steps start being firm in the direction. It´s not a matter of MORE EXPOSURE, it´s a mater to what quality of exposure will keep progress and which ones are in detriment. Do you see how many people want us to stay where we are to justify their sick minds of what they will never progress to be? While others much less likely to impress are good to us just because they are there without expectations either way. The reality of MOVING ON is that society has a very shallow idea of what they see versus what is. It´s about PERSONAL TRUTH shifting, accomodating to a new shape and existence in the FLOW OF LIFE. It´s not a construct from the outside to the inside, rather its a construct of a new shape and form to flow with LIFE the best WE CAN. There is no pre conceived idea that can ever work. There is no template. There is a COSTUME BUILT way out that no one can do for us. And the closer some get, the more steps far behind we find ourselves whreas vulnerable intrinsically. Vulnerability is a key to change from inwards, but also a place to be exploited by others. I´m sorry is I have a less than charming concept of humanity, but there are few good ones and the vast majority is UNCONSCIOUS all LIFE LONG...in a SELF MEDICATING manner which means attaching to opposing forces, and wanting to surf on another´s misery to truly justify the miserable conditions some live all their lives. There is a reason we find ourselves in a cocuun and hardly interact. And that is because humans can be very neglectful of self and others and shameless to achieve what they want by any means. You would think that msot would be kind and understanding to your situation, well, that you can be to yourself. Because most will never hacve that even to give to themselves, Never mind expanding to others. It´s a selfish race. And although I think overall goes to better, it´s also the MOVING ON very definition that gets me ANNOYED. Because most people are not kind and the IDEA or CONCEPt of MOVING ON is equally UNKIND to us. The MOVING on TAKES TIME, not measurable by clocks. It´s an spiritual quest. Because without spiritual evolution, it´s just one more fall and get up but keep running into all the same pitfalls. Without any REAL CHANGE in direction and where motivation goes. Eventually there may be OR NOT changes in the TANGIBLE, but will even that ever please others? Of course not, it´s not in their timing and space of what MOVING ON for them SHOULD cOULD WOULD have ever been. So, I dare to figure that MOVING ON is more like an inside job, a revolutionary change that really was years and decades in the make but we lacked the courage to step out of our confort zone. However the complete removal of what our confort zone was will finally allow some big changes deep within. In fact some may be less than tangible, and much more FELT. So, if anyone asks me what I am doing to move on, I first need to ask what does their conceptual framework of moving on may be that  should mirror? Because I cthis far  could live just fine with my own ways in and out, and help is more than good, but unfortunatelly everyone has a full other range of definitions for help. THe help we need is punctual. Meaing we don´t follow anything, and things and people don´t mean to help, but sometimes do just by inspiring presence or so repulsive that reshapes some more the way out in ways we know better....

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