In a couple of weeks it will be 2 years since my world collapsed, how can it be 2 years when it feels like yesterday, nothing has changed for me in this time, I have not let go nor have I moved on, e…

In a couple of weeks it will be 2 years since my world collapsed, how can it be 2 years when it feels like yesterday, nothing has changed for me in this time, I have not let go nor have I moved on, even if I wanted to I cannot.I suppose I am a bit jealous of people who find it so easy to carry on and move forward with their lives,how do they do It? it will never be like that for me, ever.Today the ache I feel inside me is so strong I just want him to walk through the door and tell me this has just been a silly mistake . He's always on my mind, if I'm not thinking of the times we spent together, I am making up what if scenarios, I still dream of him lots and I do feel a connection with him in my dreams, but thats not enough it will never be enough.

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Comment by bluebird on July 3, 2017 at 6:32pm

Nearly five years for me. I understand what you mean; it's the same for me.

Comment by Pamela philipp on July 1, 2017 at 9:10am
So sorry for your heartbreak in September it will be two years since my world stopped and I feel like it was yesterday and I am more lost than ever I honestly haven't been on this website in a while I just happened to be looking at it when I saw what you wrote and I was completely moved by it because I feel exactly the same way and I understand what you mean when you said you're a bit jealous of the people that find it so easy to move on I don't understand it either because I don't even know what moving is supposed to mean I sent you a friend request in case you ever want to talk or just vent or just need somebody to listen I'm here for you again I'm so sorry for your heartbreak please take care

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