So much has happened since 1/1/11 when my husband died. It is hard to believe that time does keep marching on. My son and my daughter graduated from college. My son got married. Three Christmases have passed. I continue to put one foot in front of the other. There is still a sadness in me that will not go away. I have happy moments but the joy that I used to have just isn't there yet. I do pray that God will restore that to me. I continue to take one day at a time which is the biggest lesson…

Well, everyone says time heals everything. Maybe so but today doesn't feel like it. Tomorrow will be the 3 year mark of my husband's death. I still feel like I have no control of anything. I have anxiety and depression still. I feel like I will never get over or through that either. Sometimes I just want to stay in bed and let life pass me by but I have my kids to take care of. So I have to be a big girl and deal with it. My work is stressing me out too. That just piles stuff on me with the…

Yesterday was hard. I get blindsided every now and then with the grief. I miss my husband so much. I feel like he was taken away too soon. My daughter told me that God took him at the right time. Everything happens according to God's plan. I know that but it doesn't make me feel any better. I was counting on us growing old together. The holidays are going to be harder this year than last year. Last year I was still in a fog, just going through the motions. This year everything is clear and…