My oldest on Kristopher died March 14,2013 after a long illness. He was just getting over gallium barre system. Thenhebecame jaundance and his liver falled and kidneys couldnot getto toxins out. He fault so hard. he lived 1 1/2 months this last time. we did what he wanted and glad of that. but i'm missing him so much I feel likepart of mehas died. I have lost bothmy parents 30 yrs and 29 yrs ago I still have days that I miss so much. how do you survie the death of a son? I dontthink I…

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My husband of 55 years died recently from a battle with dementia.  (6 years or so).  I was his primary caregiver until the last 6 months when he went into hospice and residential care.  The first week I was pretty much in shock and now as things seem to be settling I have still been overwhelmed with paper work, (bank, insurance, etc).  I can't seem to get my priorities straight.  I also want to go back to my…

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It has been a year and a half later and it feels like he died before I was born. I went through a hard time grieving but, now I feel the grief again but he feels so far away. I don't know if it is him I am grieving or if there is something else. I just know I am sad and unmotivated to just take life day by day. I want to know how to slow down and take life day by day. I feel like I am on edge for the next thing to happen..good or bad.  Just sad.

Since mom died I have felt that I'm just existing. I can relate to many posts I have read in here, that describe how people feel empty, like a shell of what they used to be, just going through the motions, etc.

 I don't really do anything meaningful these days. I go to work, I eat, sleep and breathe. I'm living because I have a body that's still working, but nothing else. Now I don't have anyone to take care of or anyone to take care of me.

It feels sometimes that I could…

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Yesterday I dreamt about you Mom, you were in bed as in your last days here, but maybe you weren't sick you were just waking up. It wasn't our apartment, but a different one with a nice view. I said hello to you and you replied ''Hello Daughter''. Then I got nervous because I knew I hadn't seen you in so long so I told you I loved you. You told me you loved me too. I can't remember anything else. Getting up today wasn't so awful as it usually is.

 It's weird Mom, for the last day or…

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It's been over two month since I lost my oldest brother to evil cancer. He was donated for research to The University of Tennessee. The have completed the research and we finally get him for his funereal. It's been such a long hard struggle to say good-bye since we didn't get one in January. Since I found that we are ready for one I've hurt a lot less and been less sad. Don't get me wrong I wish we never needed one to begin with. He should still be alive with his two beautiful son's watching… Continue

I am so stressed, thinking about my father. I can't sleep at night because I'm constantly thinking about him and wondering where he is. It still feels so surreal, and I constantly keep reminding myself of the events that happend at the time of his passing until the the day we buried him. I am constantly having flashbacks of his funeral service as well as him being buried. I often just think of him laying in his grave, eventhough I know it's not him. What should I do to stop feeling this way?…

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Just need to voice my ire at the scumbags that seem to sneak into this site every so often.  Enough to make me need to vent!  Go away trolls, we want peace not a piece.

I am tired .. Tired of missing him, wishing he were here. Tired of hiding my tears and crying. Tired of trying to be strong when all I want is him home with me. I can't seem to be able to talk to anyone about my son. the sad thing is I feel like I am offending people when I do talk about him. I understand they just don't know what to say. Because my son was an adult most of the people i know now  did not even know him. so it is difficult for them. most of all I just miss him

Mom...Dad...I miss you so much! I just wish you could come back to me! I just want to feel your embrace, hear your voice, smell your scent, laugh with you, cry with you, hang out and talk, watch movies and shows...I just want my old life back! Now it's too late and forever I will shall live the rest of my life with a broken heart :(

Three years ago tonight

The light that was you went out

I was flying away from you

As your soul flew away from us all

I still wonder exactly what happened

Did you know the last time we talked

That it would be the end?

I wish I had

I would have stayed on the phone longer

I would have travelled to see you for one more hug

I would have stayed with you and held you

So you wouldnt have had to start your journey all…

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So I am not really quite sure how this website works yet and I also don't know if it is something I think will help me but I figured it wouldn't hurt to try.  My mom died suddenly February 22, 2012.  I know this has been a little over a year ago and some days it feels like much longer than that,  but others it feels like just yesterday.  I don't really think I have had time to cope or really process the situation, everything happened so fast.  First it was the funeral, then easter, then…

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its nealy bean a yr sisne u died i no u wod be upset wi me for fealing guilty al the tim i did not no u wear going to die if i stayed wud i hav stopet u from dying the anser is i dnt no

i woz a very lucky to hav a dad who realy cared for us and loved all of us u always did even stood up for us even tht tim wen the family wear after my blood aftr 1 of my cuzens had a stroke 

the day she foned before the stroke she had a go at u for not runing after her thn foned again and had a…

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It's been quite awhile since I posted anything or even came to this site. I guess it reminded me too much of my father and the grief and sadness here was too much to bear. I've been keeping busy with home stuff, even tho I still think about my dad every day. I have quite a few pictures of him up in my bedroom, along with things he bought me for my birthday, etc. Every once in awhile strange things will happen in my bedroom...the light will flicker continusly or the tv will go off, my whole…

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