Suzanne Davis
  • Land O Lakes, FL
  • United States
Share on Facebook MySpace

Suzanne Davis's Friends

  • Nicole
  • Laura Krause
  • Sue Waxman

Suzanne Davis's Groups

Gifts Received

Gift

Suzanne Davis has not received any gifts yet

Give a Gift

 

Suzanne Davis's Page

Profile Information

About Me:
I am a woman that serves the Lord. I am compassionate, loving, kind, and treat others with respect.
About my Loss:
I lost my mother in 2008. She got sick and died in three weeks. I am so deeply grateful for Hospice however I took her home and I stayed with her 24/7 for 21 days. Today is Mothers Day and for me it is PURE TORTURE. I still grieve so deeply for her. She was my everything. My best friend, my mentor, and truly the only person that really ever understood me. Today, I am crippled by her loss.

Suzanne Davis's Photos

  • Add Photos
  • View All

Comment Wall (4 comments)

You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!

Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community

At 12:42am on December 7, 2011, Nicole said…

Hi Suzanne

I feel exactly the same as you regarding the Christmas decorations, Christmas carols in the shops and people talking about their upcoming holidays.

My mom died in September 2011, and my Dad died 10 days before Christmas last year.  I don't even want to think about Christmas, it used to be my favourite time of the year.  I was in a shop the other day buying groceries and while I was paying for it a Christmas song starting playing.  I got a lump in my throat and ran out of the shop in tears.

I feel so alone, my mom was also my best friend and understood me better than anyone else.  She was sick this year, she never recovered fully from the stroke she had last year August, and she had heart problems and diabetes too.  She died of a heart attack.  I know she is in a better place now, with no more pain or suffering, but now I am the one in pain :(

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time, and I really hope things get better for you.

At 10:29am on October 14, 2011, Sue Waxman said…

Dear Suzanne,

You and your mom look like me and mine! I am so sad for your loss. My mom died June 26th. She died in my arms. I miss her every single minute of the day and dream about her every night. The dreams are so comforting until I awake. Then saddness engulfs me again. The moment my mom died - part of me died with her. It remains an empty place inside of my soul. No one can possibly understand unless they have experienced the same. I know that I will one day earn my way into heaven. Our mother's truly did. That why they left us to go to the most amazing place. They are the blessed ones. We are the ones left in pain to suffer endlessly missing them. God put us on this earth (my true belief) to experience humility, pain, love, greed, rejection and all of the others ...when he knows that we "get it" we are then allowed to leave this place and go to the "Garden of Souls" where everyone is reunited and everything is perfect. Our mother's are there. This is what keeps me from going completely bonkers Suzanne. I know my mother and your mother are at peace. If I didn't have this true belief I would be so damn angry all of the time. I work 6 days a week as an animal activist. I am being the best person my mother would want me to be. Making her proud. I am earning my way to heaven. Thats my goal.

The holidays...oh ..I don't even know what I am going to do. You are not alone. I am right beside you. Sie

At 12:49am on August 7, 2011, Laura said…

I was thinking today how many feel they are nothing without the parent that was in there life. I've been thinking more about that today since others say that and I am wondering how and why did our identity get so caught up with them that we lost ours? I know I have gifts and talents in me that are in fact like his..so why do I think only he could shine and I have to fade away in to the background bc he is not her to help me shine. Something about that doesn't feel right.even though at times its how I felt. I was watching Joel Osteen tonight and he said that often we look to others to help us fulfil our dream. Why don't we think we can fulfil our own? I have some thoughts on it..I know for me some of it has to do my self image that was hurt by mom Mom but  built up by my Dad..Now he is not here to do that for me.  I know he would not want me to fade away here and live a life of being invisible because I don't have him to walk with in this world. I feel angey sometimes  that he was so strong and so self assured.. He didn't lay down and die when he lost his Mom as a young boy. She died of cervicalcx at 42. Him and his brother survived. Maybe because they had to..I don't know. He was a figher. I am not. I want to be. I want to have that spirit and live. If time doesn't heal this..then what? Wher is our hope? Today I didn't feel quite as bad. I'm wrestling more with how can I put one foot in front of the other then another to make some steps foward. I hate being a victim to the loss..and I ask myself and God how to make something good out of something that is not. Sometimes I feel a some hope that I can move foward. Oh when the moments come I so cherish it and say..Ok..what next? I sure did love my Dad..as you your Mom..now how can we love ourselves as much as loved them and go on? Something to think about. laura 

At 11:01pm on August 5, 2011, Laura said…

Suzanne I do feel your pain. I'm glad you could exress is like. I truly want to go be with my father. No one cares..no one knows what to say. I am amazed how shut off people are to passionate emotions like this. Or maybe they weren't that close to their parent so they got over it. I think you said something really crucial..You don't know how to define yourself without her. I really get that. She is the person that understood you. Yes, thats how it was with my father. How do you start all over and find anyone that knows you from start to finish and loves you despite it all..Somewhere we have to find a place where we can shine for the love they gave us and the light they put is us. I don't know where that place is..maybe its here for a bit until some dark clouds clear and a ray of of answer light and hope comes though. I'm sorry for you loss. Thanks for being so real about it. I pray you can one find one ray of sunshine tomorrow that softens your pain. laura

 
 
 

Latest Activity

Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Assumptions

An assumption is an unexamined belief: what is thought to be true without ever really realizing that we think in that way. For better or worse, understanding starts with entertaining the idea that something is true.  Truly profound thoughts generally come to light from the relaxation of these (flawed) assumptions.  This is where I find myself today...Perhaps, one of the more significant drivers to pushing down the loss and grief at the time of the accident, ignoring it and mindlessly walking…See More
Mar 13
Profile IconCari Jo Converse, Jennifer and James D. Thornsberry joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 13
Profile IconMarina Dsouza, Leah, Sandra M Aaron and 5 more joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 5
esther joined HollowHeart's group
Thumbnail

Sibling Loss

This group is for anyone that has lost a brother or sister. Sibling loss is often minimized and people don't realize how devastating losing a sibling can be. I lost my older sister and my life will never be the same. She was my only sibling, I looked up to her, I went to her for everything. I lost my past, present and future. It is traumatic.See More
Mar 4
Speed Weasel posted a video

Sun Keeps Risin'

Provided to YouTube by The Orchard EnterprisesSun Keeps Risin' · Lissie · Elisabeth Corrin Maurus · Martin CraftMy Wild West℗ 2015 Lionboy RecordsReleased on...
Feb 26
Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Triggers Continue to Surface

Late February is a challenging time of year for me.  Jen’s birthday is the 23rd and serves as an annual reminder of all of the potential that was lost…Her’s (mainly), mine, the world’s honestly.  This year she would be 52…It is increasingly hard to imagine, through all of the iterations possible, what she could have become, what was to be her (significant) impact on the world.That being said, things, emotions, have largely settled down since I committed a potential version of what could have…See More
Feb 15
Michelle joined Gyla Lynn Darden's group
Thumbnail

Loss of a child In memory of my son or daughter

This group focuses on healing ourselves and each other over the death of a child and welcomes a Christian atmosphere to help with the healing process. I welcome all of those grieving.See More
Feb 8
Tammy McLaughlin and Rosie are now friends
Jan 30

© 2024   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service