My name is Stephanie. I'm 24 years old and currently Reside in North Florida with my girlfriend of 8 months. I was born in Munster, Indiana but lived in North Carolina and Georgia for almost 20 years of my life. Was raised southern baptist and have been in the church pews my whole life. I've been in and out of Rehab but not because I had a serious drug problem but because my parents were pastors and did not approve of my "Homosexual" lifestyle. My step mom and dad were married 17 years before my father passed away. My biological mother was incarcerated at the age of 7 and I went 12 years without seeing or before she got locked up. I was a very troubled teenager (like most) and suffered from physical and verbal abuse from my step-mother since age 9. I was kicked out at age 18 and been doing it on my own pretty much ever since.
About my Loss:
My father died from pneumonia 2 days before Christmas. On the 23rd of this month it will be a month since he passed away. My father and me did not have a good relationship and were not good terms when he passed away. I did not attend the funeral because I felt like nobody wanted me there. I have not been able to afford to go visit his grave....it's only 4 hours away but i have no transportation. I don't know how to get closure, and am very sad and depressed. It's taking a toll on me and my girlfriend's relationship...as I have become a very angry person. If there is anybody out there...a support group...other gay ppl that have religious backgrounds please feel free to reach out to me. You are not alone. We can help each other get through this.
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