Nicole
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  • Fresno, CA
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Martha Washburn replied to Nicole's discussion Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I am less than a year out and still can't get myself pulled together."
Sep 22, 2022
Wendy replied to Nicole's discussion Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I too lost my husband, the father of my three sons, in June unexpectedly. I would have never imagined being a widow. As it is still relatively new for me as well, I don’t know the answer as to whether it gets easier. I can only hope and pray…"
Apr 7, 2020
Anna Chris replied to Nicole's discussion Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Hello I only wanted to share with you, as I'm trying to share with everybody, True Miracles that I'm experiencing. And wanted to let everybody know about them, and about the fact that there is no death, and our loved ones are waiting for…"
Apr 7, 2020
Vicki left a comment for Nicole
"Hi Nicole. I am so sorry for your loss and suffering. I have been on here for almost 4 years, since loosing my husband suddenly as well. Just like you we had a huge life time of plans for the future. Even arguing who the grandkids are gonna like…"
Nov 21, 2019

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About Me:
I'm 27 years old I have two children my oldest is 4 and my youngest is 3 .
About my Loss:
I lost my husband the father of my children. We were high school sweethearts I was with him 4 years two years in high school and two after we both graduated, he asked me to marry after he got out of bootcamp he became a marine we got married in 2011 so we were married for 8 years. 2018 I lost my best friend my first everything and it hurt so much. Feb 13th 2018 I lost my best friend he went to sleep and never woke up. I found out later he had an enlarged heart and sleep apnea. I never felt so much pain and the pain still feels the same I know it will never get better when he dies he took the best parts of me and half of my heart with him. I never got to grieve right becuase I had my children who needed me and every day I wake up it's for them I'm still breathing for them and my husband and I'll keep breathing until my heart gives out .

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At 9:12am on November 21, 2019, Vicki said…

Hi Nicole. I am so sorry for your loss and suffering. I have been on here for almost 4 years, since loosing my husband suddenly as well. Just like you we had a huge life time of plans for the future. Even arguing who the grandkids are gonna like more. He was a goof ball. BUT , GOD had other plans. Unfortunately and very sad, but one thing I learned is not to question. It was the most difficult thing to do, when all what was in my had was WHY, BUT WHY. I didn’t want to end up bitter, angry, miserable. I had 2 kids to take care of and they were my priority. I had to stay strong for them foremost.

I don’t want to overwhelm you with stuff. The journey we were put on, is extremely difficult. But I just want to say, it will get easier, it will get better. The process is different for all, its what we choose to do and how we choose to move forward, is what will help you. WITH MOST LOVE for you and your kids. Vicki 

At 5:52pm on September 26, 2018, Jim Horvath said…

I am so sorry for your loss.  I wish I knew what to say to you in order to ease your pain, but I don't.  This forum may help you see that a lot of people go through losses and grief.  I try to stay busy and try every day to write something down that was positive.  It doesn't fix anything or make the loss and heartache go away, but my hope is that someday I (and you) will adjust to this new life we have without our best friend and love.  

 
 
 

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