"I can understand how that makes it even more difficult, having become a couple on that occasion.
I don't want to live without him, and I just don't feel that will ever change. So, it all seems so futile to go through this every day. "
"Thanks, Drewtoo. It sucks, and I'm sorry you are having to deal with it too. NYE is our anniversary (not our wedding anniversary, our "officially became a couple" anniversary), so it was always special to us. Since he died…"