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Does the pain ever get better?
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Just curious ... it feels that I am being split in two with the pain and I cannot imagine what it will be like for me if this is my new "normal."Continue

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Started this discussion. Last reply by Dennis C. Feb 8, 2014.

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About Me:
55 yrs old, pianist, music & keyboard minister, compassionate, loving, gardener
About my Loss:
There is so much sadness ... I lost my Daddy last month at age 80 years young, and Mom is in a nursing home suffering from dementia. My husband is also suffering from dementia so I am slowly losing that relationship too. I have lost my job and cannot find another one.
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We write songs and play instrumental music that is calming and uplifting to the soul. We try to honor God with the gifts he Has given us and touch others' lives as well.

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Peace to You Today

I want to thank you all for your comments and kindness. I have not given up on life, but I have given myself a break and allowed myself to fully feel the pain of my losses. I am moving through one day at a time and trying to stay productive. Blessings to all of you.

Posted on March 4, 2014 at 7:33pm

An Excellent Description

I offer yet another impression of ‘normal’ grief and complicated grief. I approach all grief reactions as a complication in the life of the individual who seeks help with this human phenomenon. We travel life’s roadway and suddenly, around the bend, the bridge is out. A death, a life-threatening diagnosis, accident, layoff notice, or other traumatic change has painfully altered the course of our journey and requires a new way of looking at life. The process of grieving represents a…

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Posted on January 31, 2014 at 8:27pm — 1 Comment

Just Saying

I am giving up as of today. There is simply too much loss and too much sadness.

I haven't slept well for such a long time, and have been looking for a job for five years now and counting. I cannot seem to make things work, and more and more things are being taken away. There is no help from anywhere and I long to jut go home to my real home in Heaven. At least there I won't have to worry about unpaid bills, hurting, and disappointing others because I can't just snap out of this grief…

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Posted on January 29, 2014 at 6:44am — 4 Comments

Daddy

You were my best fellow, my first love. How am I going to navigate this world without your guidance and without being able to feel your arms around me or hear your laughter? It is a blue Christmas indeed without you.

The day you died there was a beautiful rainbow that stretched across the sky. I…

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Posted on December 24, 2013 at 9:49pm — 1 Comment

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At 11:35am on January 29, 2014, Connie K said…

And Gail do not worry about disappointing others! You can't add that burden to your shoulders. I understand what you mean though, but it is what it is. It's YOUR grief and you have to move through it in your own way. I have found meditation helps and if you can find a local support group. (((   )))

At 11:32am on January 29, 2014, Connie K said…

Gail

Please don't give up. I know you must feel all alone. But you are a musician and have a gift to help and uplift others. I am a musician and singer also. I have decided that I am going to go to hospice in hospitals and private hospice just to go bedside and sing for those who are in transition. Because I believe the spirit lives on and I know that so many people die lonely and without sometime willing to hear their fears, visions, experience  and provide some beauty into it.  I have done that before for a friend and several family members and now that I have lost my only child, the only way I can survive is to do something of spiritual value for others. It will be hard and it's just a beginning idea. But have you ever thought of doing something like that? I know it is hard to perform the same after so much loss. It has taken me almost a year to really find my voice again.

The rainbow you saw was your dad watching over you. He's still with you. I hope you can find some strength and peace today. My heart is with you. Please private message me anytime if you want to talk

 
 
 

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