So sorry for your loss. When I lost my Husband in 2013 I always found the firsts to be the hardest. It now is my sixth Christmas without my Husband. I try to enjoy the Holidays as each year gets a little better but the heartache will…"
This Christmas Season this year is very hard.Family gatherings are wonderful but l feel my husband not being so much more.Seeing everyone makes it more real that Ron is not here.The tears are in my eyes it so hard to bear.
"The story about the whales is amazing.There are so many things about death I dont understand.I do know each day with out my husband is too hard to bear.I am very busy and active but l have a deep yearing to be with him.This will be the 3rd holiday…"
"I understand what you mean.life is not black or white so grief is not black or white.I can't imagin long term life without him.That is why I can't go no more one minute at a time.It is 31 months since I saw my husband.This holiday seaon is…"
"Hi everyone Scotishbrat here. We had our 1st snowfall Thursday. If Ron was here we would be out making a snowman laughing and throwing snowballs at each other.We did everything together.When he passedl felt so lost I still do its like half of me is…"
"Hello Scottishbrat. I just passed the 4 year mark of losing my husband. With him I felt complete. Now I just seem to be in limbo. I don't remember what hobbies I used to enjoy. My life had been taking care of him and the 2 wonderful…"
"Hi my name is scotishbrat this will be my 3rd holiday season with out my love.It is so hard to do anything.l have crying spells that are so intense it feels like l am going to die.Once l stary it could go on for hours and then l feel completely…"
I was a full time wife.Now I am great-grandmother and a mom and grandmother.I put my hobbies away to care for my husband.I knew I would have my time soon enough.
About my Loss:
My husband was a wonderful husband and father.He was very talented ,in music, in art,writing.When Ron retired from a utility company and persued a prison ministry that God gave him. In 1993 he started writing a news letter and bible lessons.He sent them out to prisons all over the country.It stared 1993 and ended April 2016.
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Hello Scottishbrat. I just passed the 4 year mark of losing my husband. With him I felt complete. Now I just seem to be in limbo. I don't remember what hobbies I used to enjoy. My life had been taking care of him and the 2 wonderful children we had. His dreams were mine. With him gone I am just floundering. Altho my son and daughter are in their 20's they show no urgency in meeting anyone and giving us grandchildren, which was the one thing my husband cried about during his cancer treatment...he'd never see a grandchild and be able to spoil them. I spent my first year alone angry at God and the world. He was only 57 and a better person than I was. I should've been the one God called. Your husband sounds like an amazing and giving man. I'm sure he touched a lot of souls out there. That makes it all the tougher to be without him. I share your pain.
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