"I had a conversation with my son two years after his passing. I lost him during pregnancy and it haunted me that I would never know him and that brief conversation meant the world to me. He revealed things I hadn't even realized I had been…"
I'm Alex, age 40. I'm a Recovery Peer Support Specialist and the mother of a 5-year-old daughter. What no one tells you about grief is how intensely LONELY it is- you may not be the only one who lost someone but you are the only one who lost that specific someone, and it can make you feel completely isolated in your pain. This is why I think having support during the grieving process is super important.
About my Loss:
I went through a pregnancy loss with my son in 2010. It was the most traumatic experience of my life, and I still grieve him immensely.
More recently, my father passed away in June of 2020. We were extremely close and I don't think the reality of his passing has sunk in yet, but I know when it does it will be devastating.
"Bluebird, I am glad that you took that the right way. I had a feeling you would know what I meant. And your description is correct: I have a general idea of how you feel but it's impossible for me or anyone else to know…"
"I guess I can emphasize with the things you loved to do dying with the one you loved - as if that feeling has been pulled along, stretched thin to behind the veil. You don't have the energy to pursue them anymore, and just having something that…"
"Please don't apologize; I'm sorry I didn't respond to your last post in April, I'm not very good about keeping up with things anymore.
I don't feel that I'm moving forward at all, but I can see how that would work…"
You don't sound insane to me; you are SO lucky that you feel your love with you. I do not. I did a few times, in the month or so right after he died, but not since. I worry that this may be because he doesn't exist, because there is…"
"Thanks for the ink to that Ted Talk, Jeff. I just watched it, and I can identify with some of what the speaker said, but not all of it. It's good that her phrase about moving forward with her husband, not moving on without him,…"
"That's a good way to put it. Your second paragraph doesn't sound insane at all. I know what you mean. I feel the same, and we're luck to have even that.
In the video I thought the laughter was out of place - at least…"