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bluebird commented on Aaron Hoenig's blog post Today
"There are many of us here who feel much as you do.  My husband was the only person I ever really dated, the only person I had a relationship with, the only person I made love with....he was and is my soulmate, the love of my life, and when he…"
Dec 30, 2017
Peggy left a comment for Aaron Hoenig
"I'm so very sorry for your loss Aaron.  I lost my husband to cancer as well.  He died in August 2015.  It's early days right now and I hope you are feeling well supported by your family and friends.  Should you ever…"
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Aaron Hoenig left a comment for morgan
"Morgan, thank you for reaching out.  I am so sorry for your loss to.  I agree that no one can understand the loss of a spouse unless they too have experienced it first hand.  It is a unique loss like losing a child.  I feel after…"
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morgan left a comment for Aaron Hoenig
"Aaron, Losing a spouse is horrendous.  Those of us who write here have experienced what I never realized was so prevalent before the internet.  The grief.  The pain.  I never could have understood there were this many people out…"
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Today

I joined today to connect with people who may be feeling the same way I am..guilt, lost, alone, scared, angry, and moments of joy when I think about our life together.I recently lost my husband of 26 years,  He was the first and last man I dated and had a relationship with.  He was my best friend, my rock, my love and connection to life.  He showed me how to be strong and independent, but i am not sure I can be without him most of the time.Joining him is not an option!! I have too much of a…See More
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I lost my husband of 26 years to cancer on November 10th.
About my Loss:
It has been three weeks and I still feel it like it was yesterday. Larry had been fighting cancer for almost 20 months when he passed. It was less than a month from the diagnosis from metastasis outside the liver until his passing. He was at home as he wished and I would not give back the experience of being with him through the end and saying "I love you" and kissing him goodbye as he took his last breath.
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Today

I joined today to connect with people who may be feeling the same way I am..guilt, lost, alone, scared, angry, and moments of joy when I think about our life together.

I recently lost my husband of 26 years,  He was the first and last man I dated and had a relationship with.  He was my best friend, my rock, my love and connection to life.  He showed me how to be strong and independent, but i am not sure I can be without him most of the time.

Joining him is not an option!! I…

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At 3:45pm on December 16, 2017, Peggy said…

I'm so very sorry for your loss Aaron.  I lost my husband to cancer as well.  He died in August 2015.  It's early days right now and I hope you are feeling well supported by your family and friends.  Should you ever want to chat, please let me know.  it's been my experience that while you'll never get over the loss of your beloved spouse, partner and best friend, you can get through it.

At 10:49pm on December 5, 2017, morgan said…

Aaron,

Losing a spouse is horrendous.  Those of us who write here have experienced what I never realized was so prevalent before the internet.  The grief.  The pain.  I never could have understood there were this many people out there living life but dying inside day after day if it weren't for these kinds of sites online now.  

Its probably a good thing that you don't want to join him as there are many who don't have that stamina.  I wonder now more often than not why such stigma is attached to suicide when having experienced the kind of pain I have endured from losing my husband seems more understandable when now I have had the same kind of pain someone who commits suicide has.  I have made it this far (four years and 9 months) but the toll it has taken on my body is just a slow death rather than a quick one.  My immune system has ravaged me because I have found it near to impossible to stop remembering him.  And when I remember it pains me to know he is no longer here with me to enjoy life.  I want him back.  I want him beside me.  I don't want to walk alone and I don't want to walk with anyone else.  I want him to come and get me.  I ask him daily to do so. I must be very weak because I cannot get over his death.  I work, I try to sleep I try to eat but bottom line is I have not reconstructed my life other than trying to continue making a living so I can pay my bills.  But joy?  None.  Happiness? No.  Even nature doesn't really bring much more out of me other than an acknowledgment that I need it so I can barely function and avoid hustle, bustle, people and activity.  

Tonight I am on here rambling because I cant even form rational reasonable coherent conversation anymore without just exclaiming over and over how much I hate having to continue this charade.  I'm plain old tired of being an actress.  I want him to come and sweep me off my feet and remove me from this world.  

I can only hope you have a better chance at finding a way to live again. I sure didnt.  

 
 
 

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