My Mom and Dad

I lost both my parents in the last 12 months. They were both about 62 years young. My Father died of Cancer last June, and immediately after, my Mother was diagnosed with Picks Disease and passed this June. I am confused, alone, angry. I am an only child and went through all this alone with them. I took care of my father and was holding his hand when he left us and, less than one year later, was taking care of my mother and holding her hand while she left me.

I am certain that I am alone now. My parents were so much more than just parents, they were my friends, my confidants, my support. I go absolutely crazy that I cannot call my Dad. While I was close to both, my Dad was my best friend in this world. He never judged me or my decisions. He celebrated life and was such a genuine person.

My daughter started 1st grade today and I cried all day because they would have been so proud. My daughter was the light of their lives, their only grandchild.

I know life, as I have known it, is over. How do I start again? How can I cope with the extreme, intense, unbelievable pain in my chest?

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Permalink Reply by Tiffany Jacobsen on September 2, 2009 at 9:59pm
I am so feeling exactly how you are feeling.....i'm not sure what to do either...it's like i lost myself as a person...the hurt feels like it never goes away....iv'e been reading this book...Wasnt ready to say goodbye...it's helped out a little bit...it makes me feel like im not so crazy and im not alone... I think it really helps to talk to others that are going through the same thing...because lately ive just closed myself from the world and it is just making things worse....im so greatful for this site...so maybe we can support eachother and learn from eachother...your in my prayers hun...love and hugs...
Permalink Reply by Katie Grace on September 11, 2009 at 9:03pm
Im so sorry for your loss and know how intense the pain can be at times and the deep feeling of lonliness. Its been five months since my mother has passed away and I struggle with how to move forward now that she is not in my life. I know that she will always be a part of me, its just hard not having her there for support. I wish you the very best with everything that you are dealing with!
Permalink Reply by jolie on November 15, 2009 at 11:26pm
Carrie, I m so sorry for your parents and I know its really hard time for you and difficult to deal with this grief. Parent loss is very hard for children. We need our parents and have many hope from our parents. I know you feel lonely without them, but they are always with you in your soul. I understand your feelings.

Cancer is really harmful disease and it killed many persons. You can trying to move on because life is so big. I pray to God for you and you are always in my thoughts. Sympathy Verse

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