Jodi, I'm so sorry about your Mom. My Mom died on Feb 12 this year from abdominal cancer( following colon cancer that she had removed last April) My Mom was my best friend also. I was her only child and we were so close, even though I married and moved out of state, we still talked everyday and sometimes more than that.I feel the same way, I handled Mom's passing better than I expected I would. 2 weeks ago the heavy grieving started and I've never felt such pain in my life. For me I think it ws almost easier dealing with the memorial service and condolence's because I knew I could gather the strength to "get through" that week. But now I have nothing but time to have to deal with the pain. That's just my experience so far. If you need to chat, I'm here for you and you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care, Tania