to daddy cool my dad 26.12.1935. to 3.3.2012

its nealy bean a yr sisne u died i no u wod be upset wi me for fealing guilty al the tim i did not no u wear going to die if i stayed wud i hav stopet u from dying the anser is i dnt no

i woz a very lucky to hav a dad who realy cared for us and loved all of us u always did even stood up for us even tht tim wen the family wear after my blood aftr 1 of my cuzens had a stroke 

the day she foned before the stroke she had a go at u for not runing after her thn foned again and had a go at me whontg me to pick up her meds and tak thm to the house like the door mat i woz and still am i did pick thm up but mist the last bus it went to her house and didnt fal like going 3 mile o foot and 3 mile bac hom on foot coz her 2 sosns cud not be botherd but the nx day she had a stroke carse thru not having her meds but only u and a few more said i woz not to blame

gues whot dad i did my usual trick to day i fogot to change the callenders arounf the house like i allways do its 1 of my chores still and i still forgt but i chnged thm before i com on hear

i bet u r wi yore cuzen danny amd al the rest of the family and brends husbnad steve who u got on grt with u always got on grt wih steve an nw yore frnds jimmy and bryan r up thr nowi no u will be up thr th nanna kate or i shud say super gran i used to carl her and yore own dad who i never met big andro and yore step dad and yore unlce h and all the old nboz it had past

i no u r up thr wi all yore antis and uncle and now anhtr 1 of yore frineds john will be thr now we wear at his funrel on wedday the sam funrell compny the yung boy who did yores woz carying the cofn but the lady directig spoke to me and mum and told us to still tka good care of oyr selfs 

lets hope wear u r is full of beting shps and bars and rsterons out sid hevens gates till we all com along i 

i just wish u cud com bac to us for good i no u cant but u do in dreams 

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Comment by dream moon JO B on March 8, 2013 at 3:28pm

                                    daddy cool p3

i fond som old negtivs i used on my negitve scaner fond alot of poeple had past way on thm not on the neg scanes just past way in thr lives i shud say

1 of ore frinds frank woz on thm and a few more few of the 90s wen we wear all yng now we all seam oldr 

just miss u so mush dad we all do love u dad jo

Comment by dream moon JO B on March 7, 2013 at 3:23pm

                               daddy cool p 2

i wish u wea still hear dad i no its bean a yr sisne u died 3rd mach 2012 at 220am i still feal guilty tht i sent u to die on tht horbel hospitl wrd well i didnt put u on the wrd but i caled the ambulanse it sent u thr i no u wud not whont me to feal guilty all the tim

i cam across 1 of yore old diarys again 2006 an a 1 abot weak 2 ago 1991

thn i fond som old fotos of u and danny boy the cuzen whu u loved like a older brothr u didi no u r both up thr out side hens gates

i fnd som more old vidios of us on 2004 and 2003 wen life woz beter coz u wear stil alive thn u wear

the only tim i sea u is in my strange dreams wear we end up in restronse lately or duck ponds or som wear strange

i miss yore lafter and silly songs and funny koke like wen u told me ther woz a hole in the tolite like a fool i went to hav a look and cud not find the hole u told me to look again i did look again thn i relized whot u ment wear u sit wen i told mum abot the hole she woz going to carl a plumer out u laft tht mush she relized it woz 1 of yore jokes

the silly songs u used to sing made us laff to wen u used t sing ths song

             u never get to heven wit sky blu hair

             u never get inside heven with brite pink hair

             and if u r bardly u hav curly hair

i will always rember ths silly song wear did u get frm i wish i new

kust miss u so mush  love jo

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