so angry

Its been 11 weeks now although it still feels like yesterday I miss him so much, i carnt stand it ,this is so bloody hard. Ive just got home after going out for dinner with the kids, just trying to make life a little normal again I suppose, but looking around seeing both parents out with their children and it being just me and my kids without their father was so difficult , its not bloody fair, im so mad that my two have been robbed of their dad, it makes me so f***ing angry, the people on the table next to ours were roaring with laughter and our table was just silent I could tell that both my kids felt awkard and sad that Andy wasnt there , how the hell can we ever be happy again , if theres a god I'd like to thank him for ruining all our lives.

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Comment by joanne on September 30, 2015 at 3:47pm

Hi Anne, im sorry you have lost your husband too, you words are so honest I love the part where you say they were inside our bodies and that they would lay down their lives for us , this is my feelings exactly, and I definitely know the feeling off being unloved,his family never cared one bit about me and Andys kids and now my own family have had enough of me, I know that they think I should just carry on like the past 20 years with Andy never happened and my so called friends who straight after he died were all "we'll be here for you"- well its only been 11 weeks and I can tell you now that they most definitely aren't, I know im on my own just me and my kids, but to be honest I don't need them, the only person I really need is the person I can't have,im from the UK and people are just the same here in their thinking of lets just carry on regardless, p.s I hope your sister is ashamed of herself for being so heartless xx

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