New to this...but wanted to reach out...

Hello...

I am new to, well, all of this, blog writing and connecting online in this way...but I hope to make connections with others that may be feeling loss in a way that is interrupting their ability to find peace and happiness.

I have had more loss in the last two years than I have had in my life to this point at the age of 50.  Two very close friends passed away quite suddenly.  They were my age and nowhere near ready to leave, any more than I am.  They were both friends that were really close connections and emotional supports through life's ups and downs.  And then suddenly...gone.

And then my father passed away...and while not young, it was sudden and a terrible shock.  My Mom is still here, however has dementia and lives in a long term care institution, a good one, but not living in any level of happiness.

This season is always one that brings forward very specific memories from years past, and I am fortunate that many of those are very happy.  Yet, somehow, this makes the loss much more pronounced. 

I am finding I don't know who talk to or how to talk about it.  I think people believe I am fine and while a part of my life story, behind me.  However, it is not...and so I find myself somewhat isolated and lonely and perhaps looking to others to fill a void left by those three people that is impossible to fill.

Anyway, as I said...my first blog...but I would be pleased to connect with others that may understand what I am saying and may need someone to connect with.

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Comment by bluebird on December 30, 2017 at 9:23pm

Hello, Heather. 

This site is a good place to connect with other people in a similar situation. You may want to post in the "Forums" section as well (http://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/forum); I know I was a participant/poster on this site for quite a while before I even realized there was a blog section, so it's possible that others may not realize it's here either.

I am sorry for your losses.

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