It has been almost 5 months since my mother has pasted. I miss her so much!!! I cry everyday! My mother died very suddenly, I did not get to say goodbye. I had been laid off from my job, due to cutbacks on a Friday in the beginning of summer. The Monday after my mother and I were going to a pool that I had just joined, having a nice day planned because all I did was work being a single mother. When we got to the pool we ran into some friends. My mother went into the pool to float on a noodle. I stayed and was still talking to friends, when I looked over at my mother I saw her face in the water. I immediately jumped in the water and the lifeguards started CPR the EMT arrived quickly with the ER doctor. They worked on her for a long time. We then went to the hospital. I felt so helpless, and felt responsible. My loving boyfriend got my dad and my daughter, and my brother, sister in law too. When we all got to the hospital they called us back to a room and the ER doctor explained she had a massive heart attack. My mother was only 71 years old. I was very close to her because my daughter and I lived with my parents. She missed my daughter’s 16th Birthday, she was looking forward to a vacation we had planned, my daughter is a competitive dancer and my mother loved to watch her dance. Since summer everything in my life keeps getting worse. My daughter tore her ACL and had to have surgery. Several weeks passed after surgery she was with friends and they were on there way home from a football game and were in an almost fatal car crash. Her knee tore open and her metal crutches, from the car flipping 6 times made about a 5 in laserstion on her face. She is alive and that is all that matters. My father is in depression so bad he just sits in a chair, and in the evenings drinks Vodka all night. I try to help him and he has just given up. My daughter is doing well. I just know what to do. I feel so helpless and I don’t have my mother. I miss her so much. Heart broken.