I sit here trying so hard to remember that I have so much to be thankful. For on this Thanksgiving Day! I have six children still with me on this earth! I have many friends and family that love me! I have a home and food! But All I can think is I don't have her! When I lost my husband Mikey it tore me up! I was alone with three small children and lost my love! The man I was suppose to be with for all times! That was and is still hard 14 years later! I survived though! This is tearing me up! So much harder! My Sweet little girl is gone and I will never have a Thanksgiving with her again! Though she could never truly enjoy all of the food because of her feeding issues she brought life to our home! With her smile and her loud voice singing its own song! She wont be here to laugh for me or cuddle for a Thanksgiving nap after all that food! I am Going through the motions because my other children deserve a Thanksgiving and trying to Have some "normal" and Katanna would want that! But its with a very heavy heart! I miss you Katanna...I miss you Mikey! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving together! And enjoy eating your first real.Thanksgiving meal Katanna I wish we could share it together! <3

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Comment by Jennifer Gerrish on November 25, 2011 at 9:44am
Thank you! Yes yesterday was a very odd and emotional day! I made it through though! Its one day at a time! Your prayers are always welcomed! :)
Comment by Amanda Ab on November 24, 2011 at 4:33pm
Jennifer, my prayers go out to you. I am sorry for the loss of your daughter. I believe there are no words to make the pain go away or any right answer to say. I understand when you say that we should be thankful for what we have but cant help to feel so much pain inside our hearts for what "we dont" have.
Much blessings to you and your family,

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