On February 18,2018 my daughter passed away from cancer. She had been battling it for 5 yrs.and today its been one month that she took her last breath.It still doesn't seem real, I miss her every day, she lived in FL  with her children,grandchildren,and husband,we talked on the phone every Mon. & Thurs.for hours (she was my best friend). I flew down to FL when they  brought her to Hospice,as there was nothing more they could do for her,but to make her comfortable and I sat with her,as did her family for the last week of her life.Even though she was incoherent,we all talked to her,until she passed away peacefully on Sun. morning. Now I have her picture close to me because I feel that  if I put it away and start going about the day I'm afraid her memory will fade and even though I know its not possible that's how I'm feeling.I often wonder,what has to happen to make this become real.

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Comment by Ginger on March 19, 2018 at 10:43pm

Thanks Billy Jo and you're right sometimes I will think of the good times and the next minute there will be tears and sadness. I know she is in a better place,but I miss hearing her voice and seeing her smile because in the last week of her life she was incoherent so I only hope she heard me talk to her.

Comment by Billy Jo Colt on March 19, 2018 at 7:04pm

Hi Ginger, your loss is so natural. Why should you let go? Don't let go. Keep your memories forever of her. You will never forget her no matter what happens. You are embarking on a journey of many emotions. Most come to terms with their loss. Some never do. We never, ever forget those who have died. It will take time, I promise it will. Don't let anyone try and push you to "Pull yourself together and move on". Take your time and you willknow when it's time to accept. It can be in a month, a year, ten years or never. My girlfriend died 5 years ago come May. I'm not over her death and never will. She will always live on in my memory, always and forever. At times I smile when I recall some of the times we had together. Then a few minutes later the tears fall. That's the way it goes. There are loads of people here, share your loss.

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