"Welcome to the group. I lost my partner on February 5th this year, so it's still pretty raw for me too. Reading through your story really touched a chord with me. Like you, I didn't think I would ever find a group like…"
Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Don't grieve alone; 14,000 members and growing
-
Shaina Hollins
- Female
- Gum Spring, VA
- United States
- Blog Posts (1)
- Discussions
- Groups (1)
- Photos
- Photo Albums
- Videos
Gifts Received
Shaina Hollins has not received any gifts yet
Shaina Hollins's Page
Profile Information
- About Me:
- My name is Shaina and I am from Gum Spring, Virginia. I am recently married to my husband, Greg, as of February 8, 2011. We've been together since February 7, 2010 but he's amazing so I'm happy and so proud to be his wife.
- About my Loss:
- I am a bereaved parent of my first child, Elyssa Kalani. She was due to be born in April 2011 - when I lost her I was 28 weeks along...I was so close.
The day we found out, my husband and I were having such a great day with his two daughters (ages 9 and 6) going to the youngest one's gymnastics lessons, shopping, then to the birthday party of a friend's 6 y/o son. While at the party my doctor's nurse (who is also a friend of ours) was present and I mentioned to her that I hadn't felt the baby move yet that day and was pretty sure I hadn't felt her move the day before, either. She suggested for me to drink some soda and eat some birthday cake to try to get Elyssa moving. When that failed to work I called the doctor's office and they asked for me to come to the hospital to track the baby's heart rate.
We arrived at the hospital shortly after but due to the hospital's regulations Greg (my husband) had to stay in the lobby with his girls. They took me in the back and the nurse proceeded to search for Elyssa's heartbeat with a doppler. When she failed to find it she called the dotor in the room to try with an ultrasound machine. The doctor signaled to another nurse in the room and that nurse left the room only to return with Greg. As soon as the door shut behind him the doctor informed us that she was unable to detect movement in Elyssa's heart chamber and she was no longer with us.
Two days later on January 31, 2011 at 4:18pm I delivered my first child, my daughter, my baby angel.
Elyssa Kalani Kawauchi Hollins
4 lbs. 11 oz. 14 1/4 in.
Shaina Hollins's Blog
Baby Blues
Sunday I was supposed to have gone to my baby shower. Two months from Sunday was my due date. But instead yesterday makes 3 weeks since I delivered my guardian angel. I am so empty without her. I feel so alone. So sad. So angry. All I've ever wanted was to be a mommy...it was finally going to be my turn. Instead it was all ripped right out of my hands - every hope, every dream, every thing. It isn't fair. I want my baby back.
Posted on February 22, 2011 at 7:47am — 1 Comment
Groups
-
Being the Other Woman/Ot…
44 members
-
I miss my Mom!
751 members
-
LESBIAN ..GAY 2 SPIRITE…
15 members
-
Sibling Loss
9 members
-
Loss of a child In memor…
29 members
-
Too Young To Die
17 members
-
Losing a Sister
93 members
-
Multiple Losses Group
324 members
-
Grief Counseling
140 members
-
Zoom Grief Support
39 members
-
Orphaned Adults
80 members
-
Sole Survivors
15 members
-
Losing a sibling
62 members
-
Compounded grief with ex…
49 members
-
Lost both parents
12 members
Latest Activity
Being the Other Woman/Other Man
This is for anyone who has lost their lover to death and you were the other woman/other man in their life. We have to grieve in silence. I can't find any support groups and feel like I'm the only one going through this situationSee More
My husband
"Thanks, Rosie. (I have memory problems and forgot about this site. I'm just seeing this now. April 6th)"
LESBIAN ..GAY 2 SPIRITED loss and grief
Anyone who has lost their gay partner..soon finds that there may be a few things that are different...such as sorting through things and feeling like an intruder because it is also family stuff etcSee More
Assumptions
An assumption is an unexamined belief: what is thought to be true without ever really realizing that we think in that way. For better or worse, understanding starts with entertaining the idea that something is true. Truly profound thoughts generally come to light from the relaxation of these (flawed) assumptions. This is where I find myself today...Perhaps, one of the more significant drivers to pushing down the loss and grief at the time of the accident, ignoring it and mindlessly walking…See More
© 2024 Created by Ninja.
Powered by
Comment Wall
You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!
Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community