Are you still a member on here? My story is similar to yours. We dated back in the 70's. He was my first romantic sexual relationship. We kept tabs on each other through friends and family all our lives. We got back together in 2007 and…"
I knew my boyfriend since high school...we were good friends..parents in the same business...we reconnected 2 years ago, both in bad marriages and unhappy...I was starting my divorce...I lived in a different state...but we started seeing each other and talked every day...this last June I relocated to be closer...he was going thru a difficult, expensive divorce...he would come spend weekends with me...come see me before work and after and he moved his ex out and set her up in her home ... The papers were at the lawyers for signature...we were planning on spending the weekend after together...and I was going with him to a drs appt...he never showed up..he had died in his sleep from fluid on his lungs...his ranch hand found him...his divorce was never finalized....I had met only a couple of people while we were together that knew about us....now I'm grieving alone...his best friend reached out to me a couple of times in the last few, weeks...but I am SO sad and I feel so lonely....there weren't any services, so I couldn't attend ...and the family did their thing...but no one knows about me...ugh...help
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Hi Lori - I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It will be 4 years December 19 since Nino passed away. The years have made it bearable, I am not going to say easier because it never gets easier, it just gets more bearable. You will get through this. I started this group because I had no where to turn when Nino died. None of my friends truly understood the pain I was feeling or how lost I felt. But you go on, continue to live and continue to remember how wonderful he was! He lives on in your memories and hopefully he will reach out to you in your dreams. You can e-mail me at email@example.com if you want to talk more.
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