I am a 44 year old divorced mother of 2 sons. Kelly is 20 and Devon is 17. They are my world. I have 3 sisters - Tracy, Julie and Jenny. My father and step-mother live 8-9 hours away.
About my Loss:
My mother passed away at the age of 72 on August 23, 2010 after a series of misdiagnoses and very ailing health for many years. Not only am I grieving the loss, I have put up a wall between myself and the world. I am hurt and feel betrayed by my loved ones and am not sure how to deal with it. I am not seeking attention... I just want to enjoy getting up in the mornings again and feel a sense of purpose.
I joined this site because of the loss of my mother, but I also lost a son due to prematurity on February 7th 1983. He was 27 hours old, I was 16 years old. I was never able to hold him, but I did touch his little hand, and his tiny right hand fingers squeezed my left pinky for just a moment. At the time, I was told it would be wise to avoid discussing him so as not to cause a commotion. I kept him inside for many years but around the time my son would have been 18, I snapped and realized I still needed to grieve. What hurts is knowing I may be the only person who remembers him, as he was not around long enough to impact anyone elses life.
Today I delivered my speech, honoring my dad for my Public Speaking class. It was nice to share some of my favorite things about my dad. Afterwards, I got a private chat message complimenting my speech from someone who lost his dad eight…"
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Kim and Shawn joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community