I lost someone who is still alive. She was a staff member at a hospital I was at. It is a rule that a patient cannot contact staff for two years after your discharge. It has already been 8 months.  Me and this staff were REALLY close and we had a lot in common. I miss her so much. She got me through the roughest of times. I talked to her about everything and anything. She was my person. 2 years is too far from now. I am afraid she will forget about me in 2 years. I am terrified to think what life would be like if she didn't remember who I was. I was in the hospital for over a year. I saw her everyday for almost a year. I talked to her almost everyday for almost a year. I doubt she will forget me but I don't want to take chances. I am so depressed. I don't know what to do.

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2 years seems excessive.  Did the two of you talk about getting together in 2 years?  Life can be so hard.  Just take one day at a time.  Stay in the moment.  I know that is hard too.  From experience, I know I have missed opportunities for joy by obsessing about the past and the future.  Just my 2 cents.  Believe me, I know the waiting is difficult.  Wishing you the best of everything.  

Hi there, I can understand how are you feeling right now. But you need to follow the rules.

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