My Mom was very sick throughout my life. I feared losing her from an early age. I always knew she'd be my biggest heartache. I'm sitting here crying tonight. The grief just has its way with me. Mom passed September 27th of last year. I fear the 1 year mark. My heart has never been more shattered. I'm seeing a counselor, but I feel I need something more.
Your post caught my attention. My mom was not sick but I feared losing her my entire life. I’m going into my second year without her and the pain isn’t lessening. I have no family or close friends and it’s torture going through all of this alone.
I lost my mom in March. It was so sudden but like you I've always known her death would break me. I'm not sure how someone is suppose survive this. Do you have siblings? I'm an only child. No one understands how devastating their loss is to me. Your not alone. Moms are miracles huh?
"I hold back from seeking death, as well...I still need to set an example for some people in my life. I also feel that maybe taking your own life might somehow then inhibit being able to connect with him, like maybe be in a different…"