Nine years ago the clock stopped. The sun quit shining. The world stopped turning. How could it be nine years ago when it seems like yesterday? I can still see her lying on the ground, people so many people working on her. Then nothing. They said she was gone. Gone where I thought. I held her in my arms, screaming “my baby, my baby” over and over in my mind, in the air. God how could you take her? She wasn’t done. She had so much more work to do here. I need her. We need her. Am I having a heart attack? My heart hurts. To this day it still hurts. Now I know it will always hurt. Today is Angel day. I miss her laughter, her smile. I want one more day. One more hug. One more I love you. I want my daughter. Guess it doesn’t matter what I want does it? Now today we got a call. My brother-in-law is dying in the hospital. It's just a matter of time. Could be hours or it could be days. My poor sister. I have a suitcase packed. I will be staying with her up at the hospital, I leave soon. He is to young to die. What am I saying, so was Irene. Why God, why? He is in a Coma. Can he hear us? Does he know we are there? Is he in pain? So many questions and no answers. Never any answers. Life is hell.

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Personally, I do believe our loved ones can hear us while in a coma. So talk to him, he can hear you. Surrounding you with love,
Diana
I'm sorry I just read that he passed on. Keeping you in my thoughts.
I m very sorry for you going through this situation. I think he heard you and want to talk with you. You should trying to talk with him. I know its the critical situation for you and difficult to deal with this grief. My friend's mother goes in coma and she also talk with her son.
I hope it will give you some relief. I pray to God for you and your loved one. My prayers always with you.

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