I am having trouble getting through my days now.  My brother died one week ago, after a long illness.  He did so well with his illness, a true hero in my mind.  I am still having guilty anxious feeli…

I am having trouble getting through my days now.  My brother died one week ago, after a long illness.  He did so well with his illness, a true hero in my mind.  I am still having guilty anxious feelings about our estrangement, for some years, before I found out about his illness, 3 years ago.  The estrangement was from both sides, more from his than mine, in some ways, but I let it go on, and even felt it was the right thing for me too.  Now I regret those missed years.  

I take some comfort in our reconciliation the last 3 years.  It was truly a beautiful and loving healing, and for that I am grateful.  I'm just having trouble with what we missed.

I'm feeling very anxious, and having trouble getting through my days, and keeping my life and work going.  That's where I am now.

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Comment by Laura on July 26, 2011 at 10:45pm
He would want you to forgive yourself.  Stay strong & Love yourself
Comment by Erin Johnson on June 28, 2011 at 7:41pm

Susan

I think he should forgive yourself for this know that your brother is  in a place where he has forgiven  you and himself for what ever it was that happened between the two of you. He is  at peace. Therefore, you cannot allow yourself to be at peace with this as well .I know that this will take some time and it is not something that happened overnight .of forgiving yourself is the start.

Comment by Sandra LaBonte on May 10, 2011 at 10:59pm

I'm so sorry for your loss

 

Comment by David A on April 27, 2011 at 10:24pm
I hope are feeling better because I know how you feel. My Lisa had an inherited disease that took her life and vitality. I watched her slowly die over a period over several years.  I try to remember the good times we shared.

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