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I just lost my brother, who was in his early 60's. He died of a disease similar to Parkinsons, but much worse, and faster.
About my Loss:
My only brother died last Sunday. I was in his life the last 3 years, but before that, we had a very difficult relationship. This is what is hard for me now, the fact that we lost so many years. I have read that guilt is normal after the loss of someone, and that is what I am dealing with. We were never in each other's lives physically - on a daily basis, as we always lived so far apart geographically, but the fact that we spent so many years not communicating is hard for me now.
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I am having trouble getting through my days now.  My brother died one week ago, after a long illness.  He did so well with his illness, a true hero in my mind.  I am still having guilty anxious feeli…

I am having trouble getting through my days now.  My brother died one week ago, after a long illness.  He did so well with his illness, a true hero in my mind.  I am still having guilty anxious feelings about our estrangement, for some years, before I found out about his illness, 3 years ago.  The estrangement was from both sides, more from his than mine, in some ways, but I let it go on, and even felt it was the right thing for me too.  Now I regret those missed years.  

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Posted on March 21, 2011 at 7:37am — 4 Comments

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At 1:16am on September 12, 2011, shelley oldfield said…
Hello Susan,lm so sorry for your loss of your brother.l lost my brother when l was when l was 13 yrs old.Him and his best friend were killed in a car accident.I still think of him all the time.He was only 17 years old when he passed.My thoughts and prayers go out to you.Try and stay strong you will get through l no it's very hard.Just take one day at a time.xoxo..
At 10:27am on September 7, 2011, Rhonda Baertsch said…

Susan,

Thank you for such kind words. I spent hours reading through the posts on this site when I found it, then recently just closed the computer and coundn't bring myself back. I think sometimes it's easier to live in disbelief and not acknowledge the hurt. I came back today and it was a comfort to be greeted by your welcome. The loss of a sibling must be absolutely devestating and you have my sympathy and prayers.
Gob bless,

Rhonda

At 10:43pm on July 26, 2011, Laura said…

Susan

 

Your words meant allot I appreciate it.  I struggle everyday with allot of thing's involving the death of my Dad & sister.  Allot of people don't know what to say when they are around me when it comes to Suicide.  People do not understand Mental ilness & it get's avoided & brushed to the side allot.  It's sad Thank you so much for your kind words I hope we can talk more!

At 7:12pm on July 24, 2011, Annette Jones said…
Hi Susan.  Thanks for your message, I appreciate it.  This is such a lonely and difficult time for me.  It seems like people don't want to talk to me because they think it will upset me.  What people don't understand is that it actually brings me comfort to talk about Alex.  I also think that some people don't want to talk to me or be around me because they cannot deal with the possibility that anyone could lose a child.  Its almost as if they think it's contagious. I have joined a support group for parents who have lost their child.  I have been twice and it has helped me.  If you don't mind me asking, who did you lose?
At 7:30pm on June 28, 2011, Erin Johnson said…

Susan,

I would just like to say thank you very much for your kind words ! You seem like a very sweet lady .I also am very sorry for your loss. I know that losing a sibling is one hard things you can go through .please keep in touch.

 

Erin

At 7:28am on May 27, 2011, Debbie Randall said…
Susan Thank you for such kind and supportive words.
At 7:05pm on May 26, 2011, Machaela Whelan said…
Susan, thank you for your kind words. Evan died so suddenly and was with me for such a short amount of time. 

I'm struggling with the finality of everything. We will miss so much together now..
At 10:22pm on April 27, 2011, David A said…
Thanks you for your kind words. This is going to be a life changing event in my the likes I have never experienced before.
 
 
 

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