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This is my first post....i just was accepted here...and there are tears in my eyes as i write this. Im struggling and just gonna ramble here...as writing is cathartic to me. March is NOT a good month, March n September. Lost mother, father n only sibling in March.....and they were all born within of each other in September....all Virgos. I often wonder why i am still here...
Then i think about it.....i have one daughter and we lost her dad, my hubs of 42 yrs in 2017...she was 25 then.....so she is too young to have lost both parents. I am here for her. Yet, i dont want her hanging around for her grieving mom.....so she has moved 2 hrs away to begin her life. All good. So i am trying to adjust to being n living alone. Having to lock the door...when i come home as no one is coming in after me. Noone to report to to say " Im home " after taking a long drive/trip. I have friends , but Covid has dampered the times with them. I go to work daily as a clinician in a K thru12 school district....that is mostly my contact with people. Work has been my salvation thru all these losses.
In addition to my family of origin and spouse, ive also lost 3 very close friends...the last being 2021.
Its just been a lot....and today, im struggling. It took me to get to late 60's to become famiilar with alcohol. Sometimes i still smell my husbands cologne...no matter how often i clean. When i retire , im moving from the area as even a drive by CVS....the drug store he frequented brings tears.
Thanks for allowing me this access to the group and to blog ~
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