Wayne,

My friend, it is just as hard to believe you're gone, as it is for me to believe Jeremy is gone. When I look at your picture, I still have to remind myself that you are no longer here. I have to tell ya, when I remember that you have passed on, it feels like I've been lied to. But I think that's because we knew each other for so long. That, and the fact that you and I have a child together made losing you very hard. Plus, you passed away 1 year and 4 days after Jeremy. I have no idea what the Good Lord has planned, and I don't want to speculate.

I thought Autumn was gonna come apart from the seams of her skin the day she hit me up on Messenger. She and I rarely do video chats so, I knew whatever it was she had to tell me, wasn't good. Still, and in the same, I was NOT expecting our child to tell me that you had died, too. When she got the words out, the look on her face was like a dagger in my heart and soul. I thought, Wayne too? REALLY?? But I had to keep myself together in order to help Autumn in her pain. When she told me that she didn't know what she was gonna do now that God had taken you away from her, all I could think of was to tell her this, "Do you see the little boy that's running around? You have to draw your strength from him, baby girl. Miles will give you the strength to make it through the day". 

BTW, GG and Autumn got into a very hardcore argument, some time back, and it resulted in Autumn planting her on her ass. I do not condone what our child has done, however, mom doesn't always tell the truth. So, the conflicting stories about what happened do not surprise me. Especially, when mom had no problem with lying about the evening she left Miles in her apartment while she went to chase me down. I was so damn mad at her lying

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