CAN DEATH BE CONQUERED?

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I'm not sure if I'm posting this correctly since this is my first time. I joined this group today. I've been looking for a site and I found this one and read many posts and felt connected. My husband Steven passed away a almost a year ago on August 12, 2016. My first year without him is upon me in a few weeks and I feel as though it was yesterday.The day he died I went along with him. Physically I exist but emotionally and spiritually I am dead.I have no desire for anything no joy no happiness.… Continue

I lost my dad 5 years ago to colon cancer. He did chemo radiation several surgeries and fought it for 4.5 years. He was the strongest person I know. I left college to come and help my mom take care of him and my family. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him or miss him. I will never forget the pain he had to endure or the look on his face when he told me he knew he was dying. It is pure torture watching someone u love someone who has always taken care of u to be in that much pain and… Continue

Losing a loved one has forced me to reconsider some of my religious beliefs. I grew up in the Catholic Church. I attended Sunday School, and sometimes Mass. I stopped just shortly before my confirmation. I was about 13 years old, I had developed severe depression, and I didn't agree with the politics of the Catholic church. I looked at the bible very literally, and I didn't understand how it fit in with today's society. I was more interested in science, and I didn't see how God could exist.…

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I'm a mamas boy. There was a time when I was embarrassed to say that. Not anymore. I would scream it from the mountain tops, especially if I thought that my mom could hear me. I was her caretaker. I couldn't stand the idea of my mom spending her last days (years) in assisted living. I wanted her to die in her own home, and I wanted to give something back to the woman who not only gave me life, but also loved me unconditionally until her last day on earth. She died on Christmas Eve, 2015. And…

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NOTE: My blogs are not posted with the intention of promoting any organization or religion. The goal of these blogs are to provide the same comfort I received for the death of a loved one. Enjoy.

Death is a fearsome enemy. We fight it with all our might. We may try to deny it when it strikes someone dear to us. Or, in the exuberance of youth,…

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Here is a reality check I was faced with very recently. I had to take vitamins after my doctors persistent advice and I got a few extra pounds. Nothing much but enough to bring bullying from a very unlikely source. A friend that recently separated, a guy who insisted to say every single time he saw me that I was FAT. Even though most my friends would say the complete opposite. That I look healthier. In fact was so many times I heard from the same friend (also my neighbour) that I came to the…

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if i cry im worid ill cry forevr i will coz of all crap iv goin on

evn loss i hav had

mom bean ill

lif bean shit…

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June.27th of this year my Mom passed away. My husband and I were in the process of moving and I was unable to get to the Care Facility to say goodbye. I was blocked in by the 26 ft. moving truck we had rented. My husband said to take a taxi, but I knew in my heart I wouldn't make it there. I blame my husband for this. The angle the moving truck had to be in, he would not have been able to park it like that again.

My so called family didn't notify me that she had passed. My husband had…

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June.27th of this year my Mom passed away. My husband and I were in the process of moving and I was unable to get to the Care Facility to say goodbye. I was blocked in by the 26 ft. moving truck we had rented. My husband said to take a taxi, but I knew in my heart I wouldn't make it there. I blame my husband for this. The angle the moving truck had to be in, he would not have been able to park it like that again.

My so called family didn't notify me that she had passed. My husband had…

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Home for the summer. In a house that has never felt less like home. This is the first time I've really been HOME since I lost Mom. I was here at Thanksgiving, but there were so many people around that I didn't have any time to process anything. Today though it's just been me and the dog. The dog Mom said she didn't want but not so secretly adored, of course. And I hate it. Not the dog; she's lovely. But the house. The house I grew up in. The house my mom called home. The house I've always…

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It´s not easy to trade old patterns for new ones. THere is something to be said about comfort zone, and how we resort to that when anything is outside what we know or we think it should go. Takes so much effort to make where we are remotelly OK, that it´s peaceful achieved only by slowing down the thinking and allowing ourselves just to be. But all in all...how do we make a shift into the new things with the calm and peace we need? HEALING takes time, and there is so much effort that will…

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In September it will be two years since I lost my mother 9-6-15 and my husband 9-14-15 and since they left my family absolutely abandoned me no one talks to me no one seems to care if I'm OK all my friends that say they're my friends are liars they never talk to me either and it makes me start to wonder what the hell did I do so wrong that makes your family and your so-called friends just stop communicating when I ask if they're going to come visit soon they all have excuses oh I can't I'm too… Continue