I was born, raised and remain in Alaska. I grew up in a family of seven, me being the one girl. I am married to a wonderful man and have one son, who is now grown. I enjoy camping, fishing & reading.
About my Loss:
I lost my first brother to murder in 1986. My mother died in 1995 from cigarettes. In 2004 I lost another brother due to brain damage during a surgery. My father died in 2006 from cancer due to cigarettes. In 2009 I lost another brother to cigarettes. This same year we lost two family dogs. There has been other extended family deaths in between these, but I didn't feel I needed to list them all. Right now I am grieving my last brother the most and my two pets but they all blend together and it's very difficult at times. I have moments when it will just strike and it's almost paralyzing. My one living brother is addicted to both prescription and street drugs and I feel like I have lost him too. I'm very grateful through it all that I have Jesus in my heart. Without Him I wouldn't have made it.
Cheryl...I can't thank you enough for your kind words and vote of confidence...this man has been so supportive of me ...I have been having a horrible summer and I am guessing it's because my daughter's 15 year anniversary is Sunday....I am going to visit him on the 2nd as I need a vacation badly....I spent 4 years caring for my husband until he passed from lung cancer as I know you very well understand..haven't had peace in years...all I want in my life is happiness, peace, love and sharing...I'm not going to throw him under the bus..at least not until I spend a week with him..I am petrified, anxious...because I know he's right for me...I know he'll relocate and come down and move in with me...and I am scared to death.....I send you a hug...for making my day easier...Angel..
Hello Cheryl, I lost my mum in Ausust 2010 and now my brother keeps sayn God is sending him messages on the radio music to kill himself. He is in a hospital and had been in secure section for one year, after setting light to his hair after pouring petrol over him self. Becos he couldnt get the medication he had asked for. Now he keeps saying the messages are getting stronger. Two days ago he said he wouldnt listen to the radio and understood how it would affect the rest of the family and now, today he was listening to the radio when i rang to see how he was. I havent come to terms with losing my mum and now this. My brother tried to kill himself few times, once upstairs my house wn i let him live here, he took several pills and luckly i checked on him midnight and called hospital.
Hi Cheryl, I'm Jen. Its hard to say I know how you feel- usually we don't really know- but those of us here have experienced multiple losses. All of mine are within the last year and were all folks i saw or spoke to regularly. Right now I'm doing well, when work starts back this fall and the stress comes with it i expect to need my down time again. I am blessed to have summer breaks to let things sink in, i know. Thinking of you down here in Texas-- pray the Hurricane stays away ;)
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