I lost my boyfriend of 6 years to suicide by hanging(I knew him for 9)...he was a marine who did 2 tours and had some significant issues. I found him unfortunately. It was an amazing relationship at first but got to a point where anger started coming out little by little especially when drinking was involved. I decided to tell him I'm leaving bc everyday I was scared and nervous of what the night would bring and a few weeks after telling him this he took his life. I dont remember much of the first couple months after that. It was a lot of sobbing and sleeping but now its been a year and a half im still having issues of meeting men. I compare them to him and each time they don't come close so I back out. I never went to therapy for this so I'm not sure if that was a mistake or not but it's all taking a toll and I cant stop thinking about him dying, his funeral, his 2 little boys and how our relationship took him away from them. I'm full of guilt and shame, I loved him so much, I just don't see how I will love someone like him again.
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My husband left this world 3 weeks ago. We have a 9 year old and a 2 year old. I feel so lonely. I so badly wish he could come back. Life without him feels empty. For the first time in my life I'm looking forward to my own passing so that I can reunite with him. I'm barely coping...
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