julia somerville

Female

cheshunt, hertfordshire

United Kingdom

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About Me:: i am a lone parent with an autistic son aged 13, i work as a midwife and live in england.i have 3 sisters , a brother and a very elderly mother.
About my Loss:: i have just lost my elderly father fairly suddenly (yesterday) and am tottally unpprepaired for this loss. the rest of my sisters and brother all seem to have kind of accepted it and i find it amazing and odd that they can do this so soon. i know its very soon after and i realize that i am soo lucky to have got to the age that i have without ever really experiencing close loss, but it still is so sad and i cant stop crying and just cant believe that i wont see him anymore. i hate feeling like this,and i havent even had the funeral yet, i just keep on thinking how he died alone and him in the mortury. i feel very bereft.