I wish the world will leave me alone so I can continue helping myself feel better. My partner hated it when I felt anxious or sad. Even when he was sick, he didn't want me to be sad. I took a break from my contract work after my partner passed away from non small cell lung adenocarcinoma. I needed time to just clear my mind.
But I have to face the world now and deal with all the paperworks associated with my partner's death. It is painful to look at his death certificate. What's even more painful is looking at the claim forms that you have to fill in. I feel like I am disrespecting my partner's memory claiming all these things. But if I don't then the government will just take it away. It's so sad.
I am aware that other people are suffering too. Some people don't have time to hit pause because they can't. I am so sorry and I apologise if I sound like I'm whining for nothing.
I also felt upset that our landlady demanded that I pay one month rent after she told me to take my time removing our things from our apartment. What's more upsetting was that she said she called the government agency here in Australia that deals with Lease and Rentals and told me that the bond money my partner payed when he moved in the unit will now go to her. Anyway, I payed the rent so I could part with her in good terms but her greediness had astounded me. I never want to see her again. Nothing good can come out of greediness and I hope she gets what she deserves.
I know me and my wife wasn't prepared for her leaving this young that was the last thing on our minds. When she did pass, the last thing I wanted to deal with was funeral stuff and the other crap. I just wanted to press the pause button and grieve, I thank God for my family for carrying that weight for me. It really is sad that the greedy people still want their money after knowing what we're going through, not saying that they'll never get paid but at least they could give us a little extra time to get ourselves together.
Movies/TV are a trigger for me as well. I was watching a comedy show recently and the comedian was talking about taking their mother off life support and I began to get anxious and realized why. Toward the end of my mom's life I was…"
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Liv is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
So, I'd like to tell you all a story today. About two years ago, a movie came out in theaters: Escape Room. I, who had recently been enjoying my fair share of scary movies and thrillers, was really looking forward to going to see…"