"i miss mom so mush i do"
Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Don't grieve alone; 14,000 members and growing
-
Brad Busby
- Male
- Waco, TX
- United States
- Blog Posts
- Discussions (1)
- Groups (2)
- Photos (1)
- Photo Albums
- Videos
Gifts Received
Brad Busby has not received any gifts yet
Brad Busby's Page
Profile Information
- About Me:
- I am 54, now retired/disabled
- About my Loss:
- My father passed in 1983 and that was of course pretty tough on a 20 something college student, after i graduated college i took a job in my home town so that i could help my mom with things. she worked and was very independent so things were fine, for years to come, then in 2000 she had to quit work that she loved at age 74 due to knee problems and soon after a bout with breast cancer, she kicked the cancer and had knee surgery and i was there to take care of her as she had to move into my house, i was now single again and was glad to be able to help (i have no siblings or children) in 2005 they found lung cancer and she kicked that (she was very strong willed and had a very positive outlook on life) about 2008 i noticed changes in her mentally by 2009 she stopped working her games on the computer and stopped doing her puzzle books, and later she stopped watching her tv programs all together. in 2009 she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. now i was taking care of her pretty much 24/7 of course she could no longer drive or do many of the things she use to love to do, such as cooking, etc.
she moved into stage 2 Alzheimer's late 2011 and by March of 2012 i had a bit of help with home care, but that was only 2 days a week, but was very thankful for them., on August 20th 2012 mom suffered an aneurysm in the brain which caused a severe hemorrhagic stroke, mom suffered in ICU and later Hospice in the hospital for 10 more days, it was the hardest thing i had ever been through to watch her wither away knowing there was no hope and nothing i could do but pray that she would be out of pain in those last days, i had support from many friends and cousins (all of my aunts and uncles had already passed on) when she passed at 11pm that night even though i knew it was coming at any moment it just tore me up, the only person who ever loved me completely and unconditionally was gone., the sense of loss was almost more than i could handle, the worst times are when i am in this house alone and the thoughts start to pour in, i am a grown man who has been through many hard times in my life but nothing has ever caused this much pain to me, i feel like i have lost a part of my soul. i know the hurt never goes away and i know that she is no longer in pain and is with my dad and her mom and dad. but at times i feel like what now? what is my purpose in life, i just spent the last several years taking care of my mom and now what do i do.
Brad Busby's Photos
Groups
-
I miss my Mom!
751 members
-
LESBIAN ..GAY 2 SPIRITE…
15 members
-
Sibling Loss
9 members
-
Loss of a child In memor…
29 members
-
Too Young To Die
17 members
-
Losing a Sister
93 members
-
Multiple Losses Group
324 members
-
Grief Counseling
140 members
-
Zoom Grief Support
39 members
-
Orphaned Adults
80 members
-
Sole Survivors
15 members
-
Losing a sibling
62 members
-
Being the Other Woman/Ot…
43 members
-
Compounded grief with ex…
49 members
-
Lost both parents
12 members
Latest Activity
My husband
"Thanks, Rosie. (I have memory problems and forgot about this site. I'm just seeing this now. April 6th)"
LESBIAN ..GAY 2 SPIRITED loss and grief
Anyone who has lost their gay partner..soon finds that there may be a few things that are different...such as sorting through things and feeling like an intruder because it is also family stuff etcSee More
Assumptions
An assumption is an unexamined belief: what is thought to be true without ever really realizing that we think in that way. For better or worse, understanding starts with entertaining the idea that something is true. Truly profound thoughts generally come to light from the relaxation of these (flawed) assumptions. This is where I find myself today...Perhaps, one of the more significant drivers to pushing down the loss and grief at the time of the accident, ignoring it and mindlessly walking…See More
© 2024 Created by Ninja.
Powered by
Comment Wall
You need to be a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community to add comments!
Join Online Grief Support - A Social Community