I miss you do much .. Is crazy how I want and I've dealt with my pain .. Sometimes I feel like the worst person in the world .. Sometimes I feel like I disappointed you .. I know I did and I'm sorry my love !! I feel guilty for breathing sometimes ... You know nothing that I've done has make that pain go away .. Nobody compares to u and what you meant to me .. I love you and I'll always love you !! And I wait for that day till I see u again that's all I want .. Just see your big smile !! I don't know how I'm still here living without you ..

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Today is my 5th anniversary of meeting my husband. He left me on December 23. I can relate to you. We didn't have a perfect relationship . . . and we still knew, beginning to end, that we loved each other. I hate being here without him.

Even when I think I'm doing OK, grief will sneak up on me and the tears come again. He was a loveable cuss - and as much as cuss as he was loveable. We're all imperfect; with him, we were perfectly imperfect.

For both of us, I'm hoping for better days ahead. I know my love would want me to move forward to another love. I can't see it, now, but I know that's true. Let's keep moving forward. I'm hoping for peace for both of us.

sorry about your loss friend, you are so right grief is a snealy feeling ! i love when you said you didnt have the perfect relationship but you still knew you loved each other... thats how we were i believe.... i hope today was a better day for you .... thank you and yes hopefully well have some peace soon

I feel that way too! I lost my husband on 9/3/12. We were best friends, lovers, partners, he made me smile, he made me laugh everyday, he always told me I was the smartest woman he knew, he told me I was beautiful, I am so lost without him!! I miss him so f***in much - it hurts. We were supposed to. Grow old together. We had so many trips left to take, so many plans, we weren't done yet!! Some times I am just so sad I want to run thru the streets and scream and swear and say its not fair, give him back!!! I hate sitting in bed alone on a Saturday night, or any night, knowing that he is supposed to be here beside me telling me every thing is going to be okay - but it's not, and never will be!

so sorry about your loss , i can imagine what you are feeling right now cause i was there..not that long ago..is the hardest thing we have to go through in life ... im like you i sit here on the weekends wishing he was here and it kills me to know it will never happen again in my life i wish i could tell you that the pain goes away but it never does ... all u can do is pray for strenght friend...

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