Hey, I'm Paige and I have just joined this website, so just wanted to introduce myself quick.

 

But my boyfriend/best friend was in the army and deployed to Afghanistan for six months. He had two weeks left of his deployment when he was killed by an IED (improvised explosive device). He would be coming home tomorrow. I am so lost and mostly angry about this whole situation because this should not have happened to a 20 year old boy. It also just does not feel real at all and I can't wrap my mind around it. I haven't met anyone who has ever been in this situation which also makes it very hard because I have an overwhelming amount of feelings and no one really understands any of them. I'm only 17 years old, and I chose my college for next year based on my boyfriend because he was going to be stationed in Colorado, so I picked a college next to his post. So now everything in my life is just screwed up and gone. It makes no sense.

 

I also feel that deaths of deployed soldier are a lot harder to comprehend than deaths of people who have been around. I have not seen my boyfriend in 6 months so I'm used to not seeing him. So the fact that he is truly gone forever just won't stick in my brain.

Views: 72

Reply to This

Replies to This Discussion

Oh my God..I am so sorry for your loss. My wonderful Mom died the past Monday. She was my everything. I don't know how we go on without sombody who was our love and world. No a 2o year old young man should NOT have gone to war and died. My mothers brother Freddy died at 21 in WWII. I honor him with his pictures in my home even though I never met him. I always felt he was so cheated and that I was not going to forget his sacrafice by his pictures being locked away in a box. You shared a love together. Hold onto that. I have no idea how to get out of bed today. Still in my pajamas. It is July 4th weekend. Lots of BBQ's and fireworks going on all around me. Do you have a close family????? Sue

I am sorry, Paige.  It seems everybody's loss generates the same feelings, but then everybody's loss can be so different.  I can't begin to imagine how you feel when you haven't seen someone in 6 months.  So very sorry.

RSS

Latest Activity

Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Assumptions

An assumption is an unexamined belief: what is thought to be true without ever really realizing that we think in that way. For better or worse, understanding starts with entertaining the idea that something is true.  Truly profound thoughts generally come to light from the relaxation of these (flawed) assumptions.  This is where I find myself today...Perhaps, one of the more significant drivers to pushing down the loss and grief at the time of the accident, ignoring it and mindlessly walking…See More
Mar 13
Profile IconCari Jo Converse, Jennifer and James D. Thornsberry joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 13
Profile IconMarina Dsouza, Leah, Sandra M Aaron and 5 more joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 5
esther joined HollowHeart's group
Thumbnail

Sibling Loss

This group is for anyone that has lost a brother or sister. Sibling loss is often minimized and people don't realize how devastating losing a sibling can be. I lost my older sister and my life will never be the same. She was my only sibling, I looked up to her, I went to her for everything. I lost my past, present and future. It is traumatic.See More
Mar 4
Speed Weasel posted a video

Sun Keeps Risin'

Provided to YouTube by The Orchard EnterprisesSun Keeps Risin' · Lissie · Elisabeth Corrin Maurus · Martin CraftMy Wild West℗ 2015 Lionboy RecordsReleased on...
Feb 26
Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Triggers Continue to Surface

Late February is a challenging time of year for me.  Jen’s birthday is the 23rd and serves as an annual reminder of all of the potential that was lost…Her’s (mainly), mine, the world’s honestly.  This year she would be 52…It is increasingly hard to imagine, through all of the iterations possible, what she could have become, what was to be her (significant) impact on the world.That being said, things, emotions, have largely settled down since I committed a potential version of what could have…See More
Feb 15
Michelle joined Gyla Lynn Darden's group
Thumbnail

Loss of a child In memory of my son or daughter

This group focuses on healing ourselves and each other over the death of a child and welcomes a Christian atmosphere to help with the healing process. I welcome all of those grieving.See More
Feb 8
Tammy McLaughlin and Rosie are now friends
Jan 30

© 2024   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service