Two months ago, my mom committed suicide. As of now, this has to be one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with in my life. I hope that through this forum I may be able to just reach out to someone who can kind of understand what my situation is like.

My friends try to talk to me (and I do reach out to them) but I feel that the situation I am in is a really heavy thing to talk about (basically I don't want to rope my friends into my troubles, nor do I want to be a burden to them). I talk to my family about it from time to time, but it feels very weird... I don't know, I feel that if they are having a good day and I'm not, I don't want to spoil their happy mood.

I am not seeing therapy, because I am so busy with school and catching up with studies (it's been two months and I'm still making up work) but I hope the moment I have a chance to go to therapy I will. As of now, I talk to the counselor at my school and a few of the teachers that I really like. 

I know I'm not the only person who's in a situation like mine, and I would just love to have someone to talk to. Lately I find that I'm crying more about my mom and it stops me from the things I have to do. Hopefully by venting it here it can help. 

Thanks everyone

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Katherine, let me first say how sorry I am to hear about your mom and the pain you feel. As an educator myself, I am happy you are talking with some teachers. May God bless every teacher who takes the time to listen.

I lost my son, my only child and so I understand your constant tears. Cry when you must. Yes, I sometimes bottle how I feel so that I do not make others unhappy. The problem is that they are feeling locked out. God has been my constant source. I worship and pray a lot. I also reach out to others. That helps.

Peace my little one. Peace.

Thank you Mrs. Crawford, it means a lot to be hearing from someone else who understands. 

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