Why I cannot be allowed to grieve,

I have been threw much and people who I thought be there all have gone but a few how are you doing. Its like they do not want a answer. Its me I am always so strong is there excuse. I am alone and her mostly side of the family is gone and only been 2 months. Yet was told I made my wife so happy from what she came from her last marriage. They never saw her so happy. I am so angry at issues that are going on and there petty and one is wrong. I sleep more and I just miss her. I have lost my way.The old me would smash my way or hurt people who have hurt me. They are hurting my wife. To spread rumors and nobody knows what they are talking about.I am scare because I know who they are. I am fighting so hard. I am not afraid of what might happen. I do not scare like that. I ask for help for once in my life and there all gone. Is the one that grieves meant to go running to these people. I am also afraid to bump into some of these people I just want them to hurt and know how I feel. I sit alone everyday and go threw the motions. Only her thoughts keep me on a good path. I am losing this battle. For some reason they just do not want to stop.

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Comment by Pamela philipp on August 28, 2017 at 1:51pm
Dear Michael Ortiz I am going through a lot of the same thing my mother and husband both passed in September 2015 eight days apart and since my family has been MIA missing in action nobody calls and if anybody asks how I'm doing I don't know how to answer them either because you're right they don't want to hear that you're not OK theyexpect you to get over things but that's not how it works just try to take one day at a time that's what I'm doing I'm trying to get through each day it's extremely hard and painful and I'm sorry about all the pettiness and my family tells me the same thing I'm always the strong one keep your head up now I need them the most and no one's there why I write on this website to try to get through because you won't be judged here The good thing is everyone on this website understands truly how you feel so if you need to vent do you like I do just vent and there's always someone that's going to respond I hope for both of us this helps wishing you the best

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