I'm confused with this forum. Don't know if I'm supposed to post it as a comment or add a discussion so I apologize for doing both. I'm looking for grief support. I lost my husband on April 19th suddenly and unexpectedly to sudden cardiac death. He went to work and never came home. I was able to make it to the hospital in time to be by his side before he passed but I'm completely broken, lost, confused. My world has been completely shattered. I was with him since the age of 18! This march was 18 years together. He was only 44! He was my entire life and I know my children should be and are but in a different way! He meant everything to me and now I'm forced to remain here and raise our kids alone when all I want is him! I'm trying to be strong for our children but mentally I'm dying inside! Please help me

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  • Hello Jules, I am so sorry for your loss, I too lost my husband to a cardic arrest, he was 42 and we have 2 children, it's been nearly 2 years now and I never thought I would make a week without him, yet here I am, I'm still completely broken and always will be, but I have to keep going for my kids, I know what you mean when you say your children and your husband are your entire life but in different ways, I feel that way too,  I wished I could help you, I wished I had the words, but I'm not gonna lie, it's torture, it's worse than anything anyone can imagine,  but I've made it this far and you can too. Xx This forum is a lifeline for me, I don't always comment on posts but I read them all, and knowing I'm not alone and having people that understand and knowing I can write all my feelings and anger without being judged is a great help too me, I send you and your children a hug, take care and take one step at a time. Jo x

Thank you for replying. I have been trying to find a forum to help with people that have gone through or going through this. I feel isolated and alone because it was him and I against the world we used to say now it's just the kids and I. My friends don't understand and it's only been going on 6 weeks but it feels as though I can't talk to them anymore about it or how I'm feeling without judgement or being told I'm depressed and need meds. I've tried explaining that I'm grieving and yes it a way it is like depression but who wouldn't be when you loose someone you loved for so long. I'm so afraid of the pain that is gonna last forever.
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Hi jules, I am so sorry you have lost your husband, I to lost my partner to a sudden cardiac arrest on 12 March, I had been with her since I was 16, 36 years, I have no children, just my pets and I would like to be able to tell you it gets easier, but I am finding it so hard and each new day is a struggle to go on. I can't imagine living the rest of my life in this way, but what choice do we have. At least you know your not alone, which helps a little bit x
Thank you, I'm sorry for your loss as well. That's what I hear a lot that in time it gets easier but the pain in some way stays. But yes I agree each day is a new struggle.

Dear Jules, I do know how you feel. Our daughter is grown. I don't want to b e here with out him. I'm not suicidal I'm just in misery. He took care of me. I recently had 2 different stays in ICU on a ventilator due to breathing issues. He should of we'd no signs of anything. And I woke to him dead.I'm so glad that you had a few months m nets with him before he passed. I too am needing support. I'm told we all gr8 I eve differently. I want people to leave me the f`^k alone. I'm told that's a sign of depression, well of course I'm depressed I lost my husband!

I'm sorry I was meaning to let you know you are not alone.

Jules I understand some of what you're going through.  Yesterday would have been our 14th wedding anniversary. Instead, it was a day of pure misery.  It's only been six weeks since my 47-year-old husband passed away from cancer.  Every day I miss him more and it seems to just get harder.  And then having to deal with all the bank, insurance and social security stuff just adds to the struggle. My husband was my entire life too and now it's just me and the kids.  Right now my kids seem so much stronger than I do.  My heart aches so deeply, not sure if this pain will ever end.

Hi Jules, I too lost my husband April 3rd due to lung cancer. I know your pain and I feel it. This is the worst pain I have ever felt. It's not easy, but I try to take it one day at a time. I'm going through panic attacks daily. I fight it everyday. All I can do is ask God to give me strength to cope. My prayers are with you, May God Bless You and give you the strength you ned.

I understand where you are totally. My husband passed on April 26. On August 30 will be our 15th anniversary.
Today would have been our 33rd anniversary. A really tough day today.
We have to deal with the pain. It's not easy. Trust me my is severe. You know the feeling. Take life one day at a time. I pray everyday for strength.

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