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Lindsey,
I accepted your friend request
Lisa, I added you as a friend in hopes that I could private message you with a question?
I so wish none of us were even in the position to be on this site, but it is a little less lonely going through it with anyone that understands. Thank you all for the replies, they are so helpful when you feel so desperate. Lisa, I am the very same. I go with the motions. I go to work every day. I am very involved with my daughter (the other two are my step daughters). We go to birthday parties, activities, you name it. I will not let this take away from my daughter's happiness, but every day is a true struggle. I smile much less now and when I do, it's mostly forced. My doctor also suggested an anti-depressant which has been so tough. I have never taken any sort of medication, but I am at a point where I just don't know how I can live like this every day. I don't mean that in a "scary" way, but this isn't LIFE. I want normalcy back. I don't want to mask or bury my feelings, but I just don't want to feel this unsettled, anxious way every minute of every day. Thank you for posting about your visit to the doctor. I feel sometimes people are ashamed of having to turn to medication and I think it is so important to talk about it and realize that it can be life changing. Theresa and Monica, the anxiety is just awful. Downright crippling at times. I think about her constantly and wonder how I'll ever be happy again without her with me. I also feel resentful and question a lot. I am so angry that my Mom will miss out on seeing my daughter grow and even more that my daughter doesn't have her best Gram anymore. And that I don't have her myself. We spoke multiple times a day. She lived across the street from me. Nothing is the same, not even close. It's so hard. I wish you all relief as well.
Lindsey,
I completely relate to how you are feeling. I don't think anyone has put it into words any better than you did. I too have a husband, kids and pets and extended family that I see fairly often. I work everyday and attend my kids sporting events (the one thing that does bring me some relief) and yet I feel very lonely, worried about things for no reason, irritated very easily, no sense of hope for happy times even though I go through all the motions of being ok. Tears come easily and not just when I'm thinking about Mom but the smallest of things bring me to tears. I went to my family doctor and expressed all of this to her Monday and she suggested an anti-depressant and grief counseling. Neither of these are things I have ever done in the past. I started a new medication Monday night and it has been a complete turn around for me. I would never have thought it could make this much difference in how I feel but it does. Monday morning in the doctors office was the last time I cried. Four whole days without tears. That's a first since my Mom passed in February of this year. I start grief counseling next week. I just got to the point where I was ready to accept anything that would help me get back to some kind of normal way of feeling. I don't know how long I will continue the medication but for now, it has been a good decision for me. May God give you all relief from the excruciating pain of losing our Moms.
Monica, my prayers go out to you......
Lindsay, I feel worse, my anxiety is so bad my stomach is taking the brunt of it. Its awful, I pray for healing everyday.
This month will be 11 months since my mom went home unexpectedly, our last words were her asking me "you know what hospital right" and I said " Yes mom Bryn Mawr, I'm leaving right now".....thats it, the next call on my phone was the hospital stating she was in full cardiac arrest.....
I try hard every day to live, but my life will never be the same again.
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