Hey - I wasn't sure how to post on this site from my phone - it's 2016 August, 2 years have passed since my dad left. I'm an Only Child Adult Orphan which makes my complicated grief more complicated. I find myself being "ambushed" daily - everything will remind me of loss - my parents were my best friends and I took care of both of them when they were ill.
My mother died of esophageal cancer when she was 62 and I was 34, my dad died 2 years ago - pancreatic cancer.
My relatives --- they will call once in a while. Sometimes I am feeling so down I just don't feel like talking. I have a couple cousins I talk to -- they have their own health problems so it helps to get my mind off myself.
I find it excruciatingly difficult to deal with all the families I see around me. I lost a couple of friends also when my dad died---so the loss is amplified.
Yes I'm on anti-depressants, yes I see counselors. But in the end, even counselors move on and retire so it's like nothing ever stays the same.
Pray for me I can go back to church again. I used to start crying in church re-living how unfair the world was when EVERYONE around had someone and I had no one.
God bless you all.
I hope that you still visit onlinegriefsupport.com but I notice you don't have a lot to say. Please feel free to say whatever you need to and we all understand. Something you could read that might sooth your heart just a bit:
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My mother died of esophageal cancer when she was 62 and I was 34, my dad died 2 years ago - pancreatic cancer.
My relatives --- they will call once in a while. Sometimes I am feeling so down I just don't feel like talking. I have a couple cousins I talk to -- they have their own health problems so it helps to get my mind off myself.
I find it excruciatingly difficult to deal with all the families I see around me. I lost a couple of friends also when my dad died---so the loss is amplified.
Yes I'm on anti-depressants, yes I see counselors. But in the end, even counselors move on and retire so it's like nothing ever stays the same.
Pray for me I can go back to church again. I used to start crying in church re-living how unfair the world was when EVERYONE around had someone and I had no one.
God bless you all.
Dear Eve,
I hope that you still visit onlinegriefsupport.com but I notice you don't have a lot to say. Please feel free to say whatever you need to and we all understand. Something you could read that might sooth your heart just a bit:
Loss of a Loved One
I hope you find some comfort.
Brenda
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