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I lost my mom just 3 weeks ago. She had been hospitalized for a blood clot and so had to have surgery to remove it (she had just turned 90 a few weeks earlier). She came through the surgery well according to the doctor. She had had the surgery on a friday night and my sister and I waited around until 2:30 on Saturday morning to see her in recovery. However they still couldn't say when we could see her so we both went home. I spoke with my sister later that morning and she said she would be going in and would let me know how she was doing (I lived further out about a half hour away). I went about the business of the day. Mid afternoon I get a frantic call from my sister saying that she was coding. My sister had just talked to her and left to go get some food. As soon as she left, her heart stopped! It was like she was waiting to go but couldn't do it with her there. They worked on her for close to 15 minutes and brought her back. I flew in to see her. They had her on life support and we were told that she could have significant brain damage and were basically preparing us that she most likely will not be here much longer. The doctor said that the next day would determine what would be next for our mom. They would take out the breathing tube first then go from there to see what she will be able to do on her own. So the next day comes, I came in in the morning to sit with her in ICU and was greeted with my mom saying hello, dear! I was so astonished and so dang happy that the doctor was wrong! So we descended into a roller coaster ride of, she's getting stronger, no actually she's not and in the last couple of weeks she slowly stopped eating. The last few days of her life she was only drinking water and sips of her gingerale. During that time I had an experience with her that I keep coming back to and am now wishing I had handled differently. My mom was having a really bad day and in a lot of discomfort. The nurses were trying to get her up in to her wheelchair so she could sit up for a bit. When the nurse spoke to my mom to ask her if she wanted to get up, she held on to her hand and said, "please let me die". The nurse said to her that it wasn't up to her and apologized to her. She seemed to accept that answer and went back to sleep. A few minutes later she woke right up and turned to me and said, "Heather, I want to die, this is such a pain in the ass..." All i could think to say was, "I know it is such a pain in the ass, mom". I wonder if I had said something different, like gave her my permission to go, if maybe she would have let go with my sister and I there? Instead of the way she passed with neither one of us there. She just slipped away by herself. I feel like she knew we didn't want to let her go and this was her way of leaving without the pull of us wanting her to stay. I really truly thought that she would pull through. I mean here she was 90 years old and about 5 ft tall and weighed about 100lbs and she survived a heart attack and severe bruising around her heart from being resuscitated! She died a month to the day she suffered the heart attack. I often think that she was suppose to pass away the day of her heart attack (she had her heart attack June 4 and died July 4). She must have heard us that day as my sister and I cried over her in ICU that night...Does anyone believe that? Even though a person is not conscious that they can still hear things that are said around them? She was THE toughest person I knew...I don't know how to be without her and I miss her so much that I feel that I can't breathe...She was our only parent left (my dad died 13 years ago)...
I lost my momma May 22 of this year, a few weeks shy of her 38th birthday and a month shy of my 20th birthday, to an accidental overdose.. Losing her has been the most unbearable pain that I have ever experienced in my life and now I have to watch my two year old son, fourteen year old little sister and her husband of eleven years always miss her too.. My mother lost her mother to suicide (overdose) when my mother was roughly my age, so when the autopsy on my own mother came back as "accidental overdose," it really killed me inside. It's only been two months and five days since I lost my mother, but it feels like a life time..
Dear brothers and sisters:
We are united in these circumstances, and understand what each other is going through. It is not always the case out there.
Love everyone of you, and feel what you are going thru as my Mom, best friend went to the Lord in 2012 and the pain remains.
May God give us strength each day at a time.
Hello all....
Just wanted to drop a note to say how much help you all have provided me by talking about the loss of our mums. Every note and comment in this forum shows us how much our mums mean to us.
I loss my mother just before Christmas last year and like everybody else, there are some days where the grief and pain are over whelming and I wonder how things could get better. There has not been a day since where I have not thought about mum, and telling her how much I love and miss her.
It is not easy getting on with life and by reading all your stories, it helps me understand that I am not the only one who is hurting out there. But I am pretty sure our mothers would want us to soldier on and make the most of our lives and it is this thought that I hold on to until the day I get to see her again in Heaven.
I will keep you all in my prayers and I know that it will a long road that we are all taking to overcome the loss of our Mums. Thank you everybody.....
I'm so sorry your heart is so sad, Jean. But I completely understand, too. My grief comes and goes and grieving for my mother was interrupted exactly one month after she died because my husband unexpectedly passed away. Now I have no one to talk to. I, too, feel very, very alone.
Charlie, My mother left me in charge of everything 3 years 3 months and one week ago today. I know exactly what she was dealing with and now I am doing my best to do what I can as best that I can everyday. I am missing her guidance and calmness to get me through the really tough spots and there have been many. More to come. sigh. Feeling sad and so very alone without her everyday. Jean
I just passed one year for my mother's death. Tomorrow will actually be one year since she was buried. I've been learning things about my mother since she died. About things she had to deal with. Things that she did and never said a word. I'm actually starting to understand her better...and her pain and why she seemed to lose the will to fight, I think. It makes me feel a little closer to her. Has anyone else experienced this?
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