Thanks for the hug, I needed that! So sorry about your Mom.  Its so, so hard to lose a mother.  Lost mine six years ago.  I also like to do art and write, and I have kind of used those interests to help me express my sorrow. ( I'm involved in something called " art journaling" , which really helps me to cope with the pain of loss. You can look it up on the internet, if interested.)  Somehow, taking all this grief and putting it into my art and my writing helps me to cope. Anyway, sending my love and a big hug to you!  Looking forward to when this promise comes true:  Isaiah 25:3--"God will swallow up death FOREVER, and the Sovereign LORD will wipe the tears from all faces..."