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Comment by Connie K on August 31, 2015 at 10:37am

Thank you Jill and teresa. Sharon, and RJ, I wish I could tell you it gets easier. Oh how I wish I could. Dolly you know - sometime you g through all of those "stages" in one day!!! I know you've heard it all before - you just learn ways to handle it better. Everyone has to do that in their own way and their own time. Meditation helps me. I have to really make an effort to get out of my house and go to a peaceful place. For me it my ashrama. It can be a favorite place in the park. Somewhere to try to somehow put your focus on how you can change your thought direction. I find gardening at the ashrama takes me out of myself for awhile I think finding a way to give service helps us give meaning to our broken lives. I don't know, each day is a struggle and right now all you can do is take it one day at a time. There is a free 21 day meditation online by Deepok Choprah (sp?) and Oprah that is easy to do for 20 minutes a day and it sometimes calms me down and helps me refocus. When you are stuck in a reality that we can not change all we can do is try to make it more bearable. I do understand those days that feel like you just can't do it one more day. RJ I am not working right now except part time in my home as a graphic designer and singing here and there. I actually don't know if I could go to work everyday and function. It is a catch 22 - I feel like I would do better if I had a full time job, but I still need time to grieve and I feel like when I go back to work it has to be something meaningful. My expectations of myself have changed and trying to find the enthusiasm to get out there and find a new job just seems to be too much for me!!!! So cudos to all of you who do that, even if you have to take time off sometimes. 

I know how hard it is, especially on those days. My day is Saturday.

My heart is with everyone. Love and hope to you all.  

Comment by Teresa D. on August 31, 2015 at 6:58am

Connie Daniel's song touched us all.  Again, thank you for sharing it.  I'm sure the process was an emotional one, but the outcome is so beautiful.

Comment by Jill E on August 30, 2015 at 10:06pm

Connie-You are truly amazing. I thank you for sharing your song. You are a talented, giving and a loving person. Josh and I thank you for your song. WYWH

Comment by Sharon on August 30, 2015 at 9:40pm

I wish we all lived close...we could all meet and cry together...

Comment by Dolly on August 30, 2015 at 7:16pm

Sharon those days .. just awful... sorry... hugs

I think I'm in the anger stage now because I am so easily provoked and seem to just look for something to glom on to to crab about... I hate myself when I'm like that... hope I can get over it soon.... I'm beginning to think those stages are so general they don't really help me.. maybe somebody... I'm just stuck in a stage of terror

Comment by Rj on August 30, 2015 at 6:10pm

Sharon, i have been in the same misery. We lost our boys about the exact same time, larry also died on a sunday, tuesday will be 7 months. Time has not lessened the pain at all. I missed another two weeks of work because i could not function, the tears wouldn't stop. I made it back last monday,will see if i can make a full week coming up. I just cant get it together either. God it hurts so bad.

Comment by Sharon on August 30, 2015 at 5:41pm

I'm having such a hard day today. Tears won't stop flowing. Sunday's are bad because Troy died on a Sunday... But it's been almost 7 months. You would think things would be better, but I feel worse. Like suddenly I can't handle it any more.
His girlfriend is having a BBQ today with all of their friends. I just keep thinking,he should be there. Eating and laughing with them. I feel so lost.

Comment by Connie K on August 30, 2015 at 4:21pm

Ammy - I understand. Sometimes I feel I should be doing so many things. I am humbled by those who create foundations, keep them going, write books, etc. Just finishing that song took 2 years. Sometimes I feel that same emptiness you speak of. Empty of motivation, empty of what words to say, empty because my son filled me up. But Ammy you are there for your grandchildren and that is huge. There just so much energy we can expend on trying to make our reality different than it is I think and then it's too much - at least for a while. Thnak you for  your kind words about Whispers of the Angels.

Thank you also Dolly - it would be great to meet someday and play music together.  ((( )))

Comment by Ammy on August 30, 2015 at 12:16pm

As usual I have been thinking of you all but I have not been on for awhile.  I have been moved to a different phase it seems and I am trying to adjust or wait for it to end.  I use to write, work on pictures, videos and other things to keep myself busy and feeling connected to my son but suddenly I just feel empty.  I think it's almost worse than feeling the pain.  I can't really explain it.  If it wasn't for our 2 youngest grandchildren I can't imagine where I would be because they make me be somewhat focused when they are around.

Connie, thank you for sharing your song, which is our song in our hearts.  You and Daniel did a beautiful job putting it together.

Blessings of peace & hugs to all. 

Comment by Dolly on August 30, 2015 at 11:59am

wow connie.. I can't wait to try to play along with your songs here at my house and on the mountain... are they on itunes yet? wow...

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