Peace.

I am so sorry I neglect my internet activities most of the time in favor of a Self Injury site where I feel free to express my self.
I came back here to thank for kind responses.
I also came back her in the hope of support or at least understanding in this matter of Carol Ann's death . Now 2 years ago almost.
The time has passed so slow.
It is like an eternity compacted into those 2 years.
I am still in real difficulty over the issue.
Suicide thoughts run in a now very casual way through my mind.
I know that on the "other side" we meet our most loved.
Why should I not desire this?
I am committed to not suicide.
However I so so strongly feel a pull towards this course of action.
So one of the ways I have to stop this is to cut myself .
It works every time.
After I cut I go to sleep. I feel peaceful.
It seems to calm me down.
I will post more often .Maybe I can find some voice or healing?

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Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on July 2, 2015 at 3:38pm

its coz of loss iv bean gon on vimio wtch othr vids thy hav dun i luv sea or sky 1s i do 

hears 1 i wtchd i did

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Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on July 3, 2015 at 3:21pm

thnx 

it lst loookn pic u can ingnre spam its slyd on hear annej 

if thy had loss thy wud no abot it we do i cnt evn numb pan i cnt sise 2012 had so mush losss on top 

Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on July 4, 2015 at 3:42pm

i luv pics pf sky my mini camrec is grt only prob is u hear my brthn on it hears fw pics hear

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